Roger Zelazny "Lord of Light"
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I
It is said that fifty-three years after his liberation he returned from
the Golden Cloud, to take up once again the gauntlet of Heaven, to oppose
the Order of Life and the gods who ordained it so. His followers had prayed
for his return, though their prayers were sin. Prayer should not trouble one
who has gone on to Nirvana, no matter what the circumstances of his going.
The wearers of the saffron robe prayed, however, that He of the Sword,
Manjusri, should come again among them, The Boddhisatva is said to have
heard. . .He whose desires have been throttled,who is independent of root,whose pasture is emptiness --signless and free --his path is as unknowableas that of birds across the heavens.Dhammapada (93)
His followers called him Mahasamatman and said he was a god. He
preferred to drop the Maha- and the -atman, however, and called himself Sam.
He never claimed to be a god. But then, he never claimed not to be a god.
Circumstances being what they were, neither admission could be of any
benefit. Silence, though, could.
Therefore, there was mystery about him.
It was in the season of the rains . . .
It was well into the time of the great wetness. . .
It was in the days of the rains that their prayers went up, not from
the fingering of knotted prayer cords or the spinning of prayer wheels, but
from the great pray-machine in the monastery of Ratri, goddess of the Night
The high-frequency prayers were directed upward through the atmosphere
and out beyond it, passing into that golden cloud called the Bridge of the
Gods, which circles the entire world, is seen as a bronze rainbow at night
and is the place where the red sun becomes orange at midday.
Some of the monks doubted the orthodoxy of this prayer technique, but
the machine had been built and was operated by Yama-Dharma, fallen, of the
Celestial City; and, it was told, he had ages ago built the mighty thunder
chariot of Lord Shiva: that engine that fled across the heavens belching
gouts of fire in its wake.
Despite his tall from favor, Yama was still deemed mightiest of the
artificers, though it was not doubted that the Gods of the City would have
him to die the real death were they to learn of the pray-machine. For that
matter, though, it was not doubted that they would have him to die the real
death without the excuse of the pray-machine, also, were he to come into
their custody. How he would settle this matter with the Lords of Karma was
his own affair, though none doubted that when the time came he would find a
way. He was half as old as the Celestial City itself, and not more than ten
of the gods remembered the founding of that abode. He was known to be wiser
even than the Lord Kubera in the ways of the Universal Fire. But these were
his lesser Attributes. He was best known for another thing, though few men
spoke of it. Tall, but not overly so; big, but not heavy; his movements,
slow and fluent. He wore red and spoke little.
He tended the pray-machine, and the giant metal lotus he had set atop
the monastery roof turned and turned in its sockets.
A light rain was falling upon the building, the lotus and the jungle at
the foot of the mountains. For six days he had offered many kilowatts of
prayer, but the static kept him from being heard On High. Under his breath,
he called upon the more notable of the current fertility deities, invoking
them in terms of their most prominent Attributes.
A rumble of thunder answered his petition, and the small ape who
assisted him chuckled. "Your prayers and your curses come to the same. Lord
Yama," commented the ape. "That is to say, nothing."
"It has taken you seventeen incarnations to arrive at this truth?" said
Yama. "I can see then why you are still doing time as an ape."
"Not so," said the ape, whose name was Tak. "My fall, while less
spectacular than your own, nevertheless involved elements of personal malice
on the part of -- "
"Enough!" said Yama, turning his back to him.
Tak realized then that he might have touched upon a sore spot. In an
attempt to find another subject for conversation, he crossed to the window,
leapt onto its wide sill and stared upward.
"There is a break in the cloud cover, to the west," he said.
Yama approached, followed the direction of his gaze, frowned, and
nodded.
"Aye," he said. "Stay where you are and advise me."
He moved to a bank of controls.
Overhead, the lotus halted in its turning, then faced the patch of bare
sky.
"Very good," he said. "We're getting something."
His hand moved across a separate control panel, throwing a series of
switches and adjusting two dials.
Below them, in the cavernous cellars of the monastery, the signal was
received and other preparations were begun: the host was made ready.
"The clouds are coming together again!" cried Tak.
"No matter, now," said the other. "We've hooked our fish. Out of
Nirvana and into the lotus, he comes."
There was more thunder, and the rain came down with a sound like hail
upon the lotus. Snakes of blue lightning coiled, hissing, about the
mountaintops.
Yama sealed a final circuit.
"How do you think he will take to wearing the flesh again?" asked Tak.
"Go peel bananas with your feet!"
Tak chose to consider this a dismissal and departed the chamber,
leaving Yama to close down the machinery. He made his way along a corridor
and down a wide flight of stairs. He reached the landing, and as he stood
there he heard the sound of voices and the shuffling of sandals coming in
his direction from out a side hall.
Without hesitating, he climbed the wall, using a series of carved
panthers and an opposing row of elephants as handholds. Mounting a rafter,
he drew back into a well of shadow and waited, unmoving.
Two dark-robed monks entered through the archway.
"So why can she not clear the sky for them?" said the first.
The second, an older, more heavily built man, shrugged. "I am no sage
that I can answer such questions. That she is anxious is obvious, or she
should never have granted them this sanctuary, nor Yama this usage. But who
can mark the limits of night?"
"Or the moods of a woman," said the first. "I have heard that even the
priests did not know of her coming."
"That may be. Whatever the case, it would seem a good omen."
"So it would seem."
They passed through another archway, and Tak listened to the sounds of
their going until there was only silence.
Still, he did not leave his perch.
The "she" referred to by the monks could only be the goddess Ratri
herself, worshiped by the order that had given sanctuary to the followers of
Great-Souled Sam, the Enlightened One. Now, Ratri, too, was to be numbered
among those fallen from the Celestial City and wearing the skin of a mortal.
She had every reason to be bitter over the whole affair; and Tak realized
the chance she was taking in granting sanctuary, let alone being physically
present during this undertaking. It could jeopardize any possibility of her
future reinstatement if word of it got out and reached the proper ears. Tak
recalled her as the dark-haired beauty with silver eyes, passing in her moon
chariot of ebony and chromium, drawn by stallions black and white, tended by
her guard, also black and white, passing up the Avenue of Heaven, rivaling
even Sarasvati in her glory. His heart leapt within his hairy breast. He had
to see her again. One night, long ago, in happier times and better form, he
had danced with her, on a balcony under the stars. It had been for only a
few moments. But he remembered; and it is a difficult thing to be an ape and
to have such memories.
He climbed down from the rafter.
There was a tower, a high tower rising from the northeast comer of the
monastery. Within that tower was a chamber. It was said to contain the
indwelling presence of the goddess. It was cleaned daily, the linens
changed, fresh incense burnt and a votive offering laid just within the
door. That door was normally kept locked.
There were, of course, windows. The question as to whether a man could
have entered by means of any of these windows must remain academic. Tak
proved that an ape could.
Mounting the monastery roof, he proceeded to scale the tower, moving
from brick to slippery brick, from projection to irregularity, the heavens
growling doglike above him, until finally he clung to the wall just below
the outer sill. A steady rain fell upon him. He heard a bird singing within.
He saw the edge of a wet, blue scarf hanging over the sill.
He caught hold of the ledge and raised himself until he could peer
inside.
Her back was to him. She wore a dark blue sari, and she was seated on a
small bench at the opposite end of the room.
He clambered onto the sill and cleared his throat.
She turned quickly. She wore a veil, so that her features were
indistinguishable. She regarded him through it, then rose and crossed the
chamber.
He was dismayed. Her figure, once lithe, was wide about the waist; her
walk, once the swaying of boughs, was a waddle; her complexion was too dark;
even through the veil the lines of her nose and jaw were too pronounced.
He bowed his head. "'And so you have drawn near to us, who at your
coming have come home," he sang, "'as birds to their nest upon the tree.'"
She stood, still as her statue in the main hall below.
"'Guard us from the she-wolf and the wolf, and guard us from the thief,
oh Night, and so be good for us to pass.'"
She reached out slowly and laid her hand upon his head.
"You have my blessing, little one," she said, after a time.
"Unfortunately, that is all I can give. I cannot offer protection or render
beauty, who lack these luxuries myself. What is your name?"
"Tak," he told her.
She touched her brow. "I once knew a Tak," she said, "in a bygone day,
a distant place. . ."
"I am that Tak, madam."
She seated herself upon the sill. After a time, he realized that she
was weeping, within her veil.
"Don't cry, goddess. Tak is here. Remember Tak, of the Archives? Of the
Bright Spear? He stands yet ready to do thy bidding."
"Tak. . ." she said. "Oh, Tak! You, too? I did not know, I never heard.
. ."
"Another turning of the wheel, madam, and who knows? Things may yet be
better than even once they were."
Her shoulders shook. He reached out, drew back his hand.
She turned and took it.
After an age, she spoke: "Not by the normal course of events shall we
be restored or matters settled, Tak of the Bright Spear. We must beat our
own path."
"What mean you?" he inquired; then, "Sam?"
She nodded.
"He is the one. He is our hope against Heaven, dear Tak. If he can be
recalled, we have a chance to live again."
"This is why you have taken this chance, why you yourself sit within
the jaws of the tiger?"
"Why else? When there is no real hope we must mint our own. If the coin
be counterfeit it still may be passed."
"Counterfeit? You do not believe he was the Buddha?"
She laughed, briefly. "Sam was the greatest charlatan in the memory of
god or man. He was also the worthiest opponent Trimurti ever faced. Don't
look so shocked at my saying it. Archivist! You know that he stole the
fabric of his doctrine, path and attainment, the whole robe, from
prehistorical forbidden sources. It was a weapon, nothing more. His greatest
strength was his insincerity. If we could have him back . . ."
"Lady, saint or charlatan, he is returned."
"Do not jest with me, Tak."
"Goddess and Lady, I just left the Lord Yama shutting down the
pray-machine, frowning his frown of success."
"The venture was against such mighty odds. . . . Lord Agni once said
that no such thing could ever be done."
Tak stood.
"Goddess Ratri," he said, "who, be he god or man, or anything between,
knows more of such matters than Yama?"
"I have no answer for that question, Tak, because there is none. But
how can you say of a certainty that he has netted us our fish?"
"Because he is Yama."
"Then take my arm, Tak. Escort me again, as once you did. Let us view
the sleeping Boddhisatva."
He led her out the door, down the stairs, and into the chambers below.
Light, born not of torches but of the generators of Yama, filled the
cavern. The bed, set upon a platform, was closed about on three sides by
screens. Most of the machinery was also masked by screens and hangings. The
saffron-robed monks who were in attendance moved silently about the great
chamber. Yama, master artificer, stood at the bedside.
As they approached, several of the well-disciplined, imperturbable
monks uttered brief exclamations. Tak then turned to the woman at his side
and drew back a pace, his breath catching in his throat.
She was no longer the dumpy little matron with whom he had spoken. Once
again did he stand at the side of Night Immortal, of whom it has been
written, "The goddess has filled wide space, to its depths and its heights.
Her radiance drives out the dark."
He looked but a moment and covered his eyes. She still had this trace
of her distant Aspect about her.
"Goddess. . ." he began.
"To the sleeper," she stated. "He stirs."
They advanced to the bedstead.
Thereafter to be portrayed in murals at the ends of countless
corridors, carved upon the walls of Temples and painted onto the ceilings of
numerous palaces, came the awakening of he who was variously known as
Mahasamatman, Kalkin, Manjusri, Siddhartha, Tathagatha, Binder, Maitreya,
the Enlightened One, Buddha and Sam. At his left was the goddess of Night;
to his right stood Death; Tak, the ape, was crouched at the foot of the bed,
eternal comment upon the coexistence of the animal and the divine.
He wore an ordinary, darkish body of medium height and age; his
features were regular and undistinguished; when his eyes opened, they were
dark.
"Hail, Lord of Light!" It was Ratri who spoke these words.
The eyes blinked. They did not focus. Nowhere in the chamber was there
any movement.
"Hail, Mahasamatman -- Buddha!" said Yama.
The eyes stared ahead, unseeing.
"Hello, Sam," said Tak.
The forehead creased slightly, the eyes squinted, fell upon Tak, moved
on to the others.
"Where . . . ?" he asked, in a whisper.
"My monastery," answered Ratri.
Without expression, he looked upon her beauty.
Then he shut his eyes and held them tightly closed, wrinkles forming at
their corners. A grin of pain made his mouth a bow, his teeth the arrows,
clenched.
"Are you truly he whom we have named?" asked Yama.
He did not answer.
"Are you he who fought the army of Heaven to a standstill on the banks
of the Vedra?"
The mouth slackened.
"Are you he who loved the goddess of Death?"
The eyes flickered. A faint smile came and went across the lips.
"It is he," said Yama; then, "Who are you, man?"
"I? I am nothing," replied the other. "A leaf caught in a whirlpool,
perhaps. A feather in the wind. . ."
"Too bad," said Yama, "for there are leaves and feathers enough in the
world for me to have labored so long only to increase their number. I wanted
me a man, one who might continue a war interrupted by his absence -- a man
of power who could oppose with that power the will of gods. I thought you
were he."
"I am"-- he squinted again"-- Sam. I am Sam. Once-- long ago . . . I
did fight, didn't I? Many times . . ."
"You were Great-Souled Sam, the Buddha. Do you remember?"
"Maybe I was . . ." A slow fire was kindled in his eyes.
"Yes," he said then. "Yes, I was. Humblest of the proud, proudest of
the humble. I fought. I taught the Way for a time. I fought again, taught
again, tried politics, magic, poison . . . I fought one great battle so
terrible the sun itself hid its face from the slaughter-- with men and gods,
with animals and demons, with spirits of the earth and air, of fire and
water, with slizzards and horses, swords and chariots-- "
"And you lost," said Yama.
"Yes, I did, didn't I? But it was quite a showing we gave them, wasn't
it? You, deathgod, were my charioteer. It all comes back to me now. We were
taken prisoner and the Lords of Karma were to be our judges. You escaped
them by the will-death and the Way of the Black Wheel. I could not."
"That is correct. Your past was laid out before them. You were judged."
Yama regarded the monks who now sat upon the floor, their heads bowed, and
he lowered his voice. "To have you to die the real death would have made you
a martyr. To have permitted you to walk the world, in any form, would have
left the door open for your return. So, as you stole your teachings from the
Gottama of another place and time, did they steal the tale of the end of
that one's days among men. You were judged worthy of Nirvana. Your atman was
projected, not into another body, but into the great magnetic cloud that
encircles this planet. That was over half a century ago. You are now
officially an avatar of Vishnu, whose teachings were misinterpreted by some
of his more zealous followers. You, personally, continued to exist only in
the form of self-perpetuating wavelengths, which I succeeded in capturing."
Sam closed his eyes.
"And you dared to bring me back?"
"That is correct."
"I was aware of my condition the entire time."
"I suspected as much."
His eyes opened, blazing. "Yet you dared recall me from that?"
"Yes."
Sam bowed his head. "Rightly are you called deathgod, Yama-Dharma. You
have snatched away from me the ultimate experience. You have broken upon the
dark stone of your will that which is beyond all comprehension and mortal
splendor. Why could you not have left me as I was, in the sea of being?"
"Because a world has need of your humility, your piety, your great
teaching and your Machiavellian scheming."
"Yama, I'm old," he said. "I'm as old as man upon this world. I was one
of the First, you know. One of the very first to come here, to build, to
settle. All of the others are dead now, or are gods -- dei ex machini. . .
The chance was mine also, but I let it go by. Many times. I never wanted to
be a god, Yama. Not really. It was only later, only when I saw what they
were doing, that I began to gather what power I could to me. It was too
late, though. They were too strong. Now I just want to sleep the sleep of
ages, to know again the Great Rest, the perpetual bliss, to hear the songs
the stars sing on the shores of the great sea."
Ratri leaned forward and looked into his eyes. "We need you, Sam," she
said.
"I know, I know," he told her. "It's the eternal recurrence of the
anecdote. You've a willing horse, so flog him another mile." But he smiled
as he said it, and she kissed his brow.
Tak leaped into the air and bounced upon the bed.
"Mankind rejoices," observed the Buddha.
Yama handed him a robe and Ratri fitted him with slippers.
Recovering from the peace which passeth understanding takes time. Sam
slept. Sleeping, he dreamed; dreaming, he cried out, or just cried. He had
no appetite; but Yama had found him a body both sturdy and in perfect
health, one well able to bear the psychosomatic conversion from divine
withdrawal.
But he would sit for an hour, unmoving, staring at a pebble or a seed
or a leaf. And on these occasions, he could not be aroused. Yama saw in this
a danger, and he spoke of it with Ratri and Tak. "It is not good that he
withdraw from the world in this way, now," he said. "I have spoken with him,
but it is as if I addressed the wind. He cannot recover that which he has
left behind. The very attempt is costing him his strength."
"Perhaps you misread his efforts," said Tak.
"What mean you?"
"See how he regards the seed he has set before him? Consider the
wrinkling at the edges of his eyes."
"Yes? What of it?"
"He squints. Is his vision impaired?"
"It is not."
"Then why does he squint?"
"To better study the seed."
"Study? That is not the Way, as once he taught it. Yet he does study.
He does not meditate, seeking within the object that which leads to release
of the subject. No."
"What then does he do?"
"The reverse."
"The reverse?"
"He does study the object, considering its ways, in an effort to bind
himself. He seeks within it an excuse to live. He tries once more to wrap
himself within the fabric of Maya, the illusion of the world."
"I believe you are right, Tak!" It was Ratri who had spoken. "How can
we assist him in his efforts?"
"I am not certain, mistress."
Yama nodded, his dark hair glistening in a bar of sunlight that fell
across the narrow porch.
"You have set your finger upon the thing I could not see," he
acknowledged. "He has not yet fully returned, though he wears a body, walks
upon human feet, talks as we do. His thought is still beyond our ken."
"What then shall we do?" repeated Ratri.
"Take him on long walks through the countryside," said Yama. "Feed him
delicacies. Stir his soul with poetry and song. Find him strong drink to
drink-- there is none here in the monastery. Garb him in bright-hued silks.
Fetch him a courtesan or three. Submerge him in living again. It is only
thus that he may be freed from the chains of God. Stupid of me not to have
seen it sooner . . ."
"Not really, deathgod," said Tak.
The flame that is black leapt within Yama's eyes, and then he smiled.
"I am repaid, little one," he acknowledged, "for the comments I, perhaps
thoughtlessly, let fall upon thy hairy ears. I apologize, ape-one. You are
truly a man, and one of wit and perception."
Tak bowed before him.
Ratri chuckled.
"Tell us, clever Tak-- for mayhap we have been gods too long, and so
lack the proper angle of vision-- how shall we proceed in this matter of
rehumanizing him, so as to best serve the ends we seek?"
Tak bowed him then to Ratri.
"As Yama has proposed," he stated. "Today, mistress, you take him for a
walk in the foothills. Tomorrow, Lord Yama conducts him as far as the edge
of the forest. The following day I shall take him amidst the trees and the
grasses, the flowers and the vines. And we shall see. We shall."
"So be it," said Yama, and so it was.
In the weeks that followed, Sam came to look forward to these walks
with what appeared at first a mild anticipation, then a moderate enthusiasm,
and finally a blazing eagerness. He took to going off unaccompanied for
longer and longer stretches of time: at first, it was for several hours in
the morning; then, morning and evening. Later, he stayed away all day, and
on occasion a day and a night.
At the end of the third week, Yama and Ratri discussed it on the porch
in the early hours of morning.
"This thing I do not like," said Yama. "We cannot insult him by forcing
our company upon him now, when he does not wish it. But there is danger out
there, especially for one born again such as he. I would that we knew how he
spends his hours."
"But whatever he does, it is helping him to recover," said Ratri,
gulping a sweetmeat and waving a fleshy hand. "He is less withdrawn. He
speaks more, even jesting. He drinks of the wine we bring him. His appetite
is returning."
"Yet, if he should meet with an agent of Trimurti, the final doom may
come to pass."
Ratri chewed slowly. "It is not likely, though, that such should be
abroad in this country, in these days," she stated. "The animals will see
him as a child and will not harm him. Men would consider him a holy hermit.
The demons fear him of old, and so respect him."
But Yama shook his head. "Lady, it is not so simple. Though I have
dismantled much of my machinery and hidden it hundreds of leagues from here,
such a massive trafficking of energies as I employed cannot have passed
unnoticed. Sooner or later this place will be visited. I used screens and
baffling devices, but this general area must have appeared in certain
quarters as though the Universal Fire did a dance upon the map. Soon we must
move on. I should prefer to wait until our charge is fully recovered, but. .
."
"Could not certain natural forces have produced the same energy effects
as your workings?"
"Yes, and they do occur in this vicinity, which is why I chose it as
our base-- so it may well be that nothing will come of it. Still, I doubt
this. My spies in the villages report no unusual activities now. But on the
day of his return, riding upon the crest of the storm, some say the thunder
chariot passed, hunting through the heavens and across the countryside. This
was far from here, but I cannot believe that there was no connection."
"Yet, it has not returned."
"Not that we know of. But I fear . . ."
"Then let us depart at once. I respect your forebodings too well. You
have more of the power upon you than any other among the Fallen. For me, it
is a great strain even to assume a pleasing shape for more than a few
minutes . . ."
"What powers I possess," said Yama, refilling her teacup, "are intact
because they were not of the same order as yours."
He smiled then, showing even rows of long, brilliant teeth. This smile
caught at the edge of a scar upon his left cheek and reached up to the comer
of his eye. He winked to put a period to it and continued, "Much of my power
is in the form of knowledge, which even the Lords of Karma could not have
wrested from me. The power of most of the gods, however, is predicated upon
a special physiology, which they lose in part when incarnated into a new
body. The mind, somehow remembering, after a time alters any body to a
certain extent, engendering a new homeostasis, permitting a gradual return
of power. Mine does return quickly, though, and it is with me fully now. But
even if it were not, I have my knowledge to use as a weapon-- and that is a
power."
Ratri sipped her tea. "Whatever its source, if your power says move,
then move we must. How soon?"
Yama opened a pouch of tobacco and rolled a cigarette as he spoke. His
dark, supple fingers, she noted, always had about then: movement that which
was like the movements of one who played upon an instrument of music.
"I should say let us not tarry here more than another week or ten days.
We must wean him from this countryside by then."
She nodded. "Where to then?"
"Some small southern kingdom, perhaps, where we may come and go
undisturbed."
He lit the cigarette, breathed smoke.
"I've a better idea," said she. "Know that under a mortal name am I
mistress of the Palace of Kama in Khaipur."
"The Fornicatorium, madam?"
She frowned. "As such is it often known to the vulgar, and do not call
me 'madam' in the same breath-- it smacks of an ancient jest. It is a place
of rest, pleasure, holiness and much of my revenue. There, I feel, would be
a good hiding place for our charge while he makes his recovery and we our
plans."
Yama slapped his thigh. "Aye! Aye! Who would think to look for the
Buddha in a whorehouse? Good! Excellent! To Khaipur, then, dear goddess-- to
Khaipur and the Palace of Love!"
She stood and stamped her sandal upon the flagstones. "I will not have
you speak that way of my establishment!"
He dropped his eyes, and with pain dropped the grin from his face. He
stood then and bowed. "I apologize, dear Ratri, but the revelation came so
sudden-- " He choked then and looked away. When he looked back, he was full
of sobriety and decorum. He continued, "That I was taken aback by the
apparent incongruity. Now, though, I do see the wisdom of the thing. It is a
most perfect cover-up, and it provides you both with wealth and, what is
more important, with a source of privy information among the merchants,
warriors and priests. It is an indispensable part of the community. It gives
you status and a voice in civil affairs. Being a god is one of the oldest
professions in the world. It is only fitting, therefore, that we fallen ones
take umbrage within the pale of another venerable tradition. I salute you. I
give thanks for your wisdom and forethought. I do not slander the
enterprises of a benefactor and coconspirator. In fact, I look forward to
the visit."
She smiled and seated herself once more. "I accept your well-oiled
apology, oh son of the serpent. In any event, it is too difficult to remain
angry with you. Pour me some more tea, please."
They reclined, Ratri sipping her tea, Yama smoking. In the distance, a
storm front drew a curtain across half the prospect. The sun still shone
upon them, however, and a cool breeze visited the porch.
"You have seen the ring, the ring of iron which he wears?" asked Ratri,
eating another sweetmeat.
"Yes."
"Know you where he obtained it?"
"I do not."
"Nor I. But I feel we should learn its origin."
"Aye."
"How shall we essay this thing?"
"I have assigned the chore to Tak, who is better suited to the ways of
the forest than we. Even now he follows the trail."
Ratri nodded. "Good," she said.
"I have heard," said Yama, "that the gods do still occasionally visit
the more notable palaces of Kama throughout the land, generally in disguise,
but sometimes in full power. Is this true?"
"Yes. But a year ago did Lord Indra come to Khaipur. Some three years
back, the false Krishna made a visit. Of all the Celestial party, Krishna
the Tireless does cause the greatest consternation among the staff. He
stayed for a month of riot, which involved much broken furniture and the
services of many physicians. He did near empty the wine cellar and the
larder. He played then upon his pipes one night, however, the hearing of
which would have been enough to gain the old Krishna forgiveness for near
anything. But it was not the true magic we heard that night, for there is
only one true Krishna-- swart and hairy, his eyes so red and blazing. This
one did dance upon the tables, causing much havoc, and his musical
accompaniment was insufficient."
"Paid he for this carnage with other than a song?"
She laughed. "Come now, Yama. Let there be no rhetorical questions
between us."
He snorted smoke.
"Surya, the sun, is now about to be encompassed," said Ratri, staring
out and upward, "and Indra slays the dragon. At any moment, the rains will
arrive."
A wave of grayness covered over the monastery. The breeze grew
stronger, and the dance of the waters began upon the walls. Like a beaded
curtain, the rain covered that open end of the porch at which they stared.
Yama poured more tea. Ratri ate another sweetmeat.
Tak made his way through the forest. He moved from tree to tree, branch
to branch, watching the trail below him. His fur was moist, for the leaves
shook small showers down upon him as he passed. Clouds mounted at his back,
but the sun of early morning still shone in the eastern sky and the forest
was a swarm of colors in its red-gold light. About him, birds were singing
from within the tangle of branches, vines, leaves and grasses that stood
like a wall upon either side of the trail. The birds made their music,
insects hummed and occasionally there was a growl or bark. The foliage was
stirred by the wind. Below him, the trail bent sharply, entering a clearing.
Tak dropped to the ground, proceeded on foot. At the other side of the
clearing he took to the trees again. Now, he noticed, the trail was running
parallel to the mountains, even inclining slightly back in their direction.
There was a distant rattle of thunder and after a time a new breeze came up,
cool. He swung on, breaking through moist spider webs, frightening birds
into shrieking flurries of bright plumage. The trail continued to move in
the direction of the mountains, slowly doubling back upon itself. At times,
it met with other hard-packed, yellow trails, dividing, crossing, parting.
On these occasions, he descended to the ground and studied the surface
markings. Yes, Sam had turned here; Sam had stopped beside this pool to
drink-- here, where the orange mushrooms grew taller than a tall man, and
wide enough to shelter several from the rains; now, Sam had taken that
branch of the roadway; here, he had stopped to fix a sandal strap; at this
point, he had leaned upon a tree, which showed indications of housing a
dryad. . . .
Tak moved on, about half an hour behind his quarry, as he judged it--
so giving him plenty of time to get to wherever he was going and to begin
whatever activity so engaged his enthusiasms. A halo of heat lightning
reached above the mountains he was now facing. There was another rumble of
thunder. The trail headed on up into the foothills, where the forest
thinned, and Tak moved on all fours amid tall grasses. It headed steadily
upward, and rocky outcroppings became more and more prominent. Still, Sam
had passed this way, so Tak followed.
Overhead, the pollen-colored Bridge of the Gods vanished as the clouds
rolled steadily eastward. Lightning flashed, and now the thunder followed
quickly. The wind came faster here in the open; the grasses bent down before
it; the temperature seemed suddenly to plummet.
Tak felt the first drops of rain and dashed for the shelter of one of
the stands of stone. It ran like a narrow hedge, slightly slanted against
the rain. Tak moved along its base as the waters were unleashed and color
deserted the world along with the last bit of blue in the sky.
A sea of turbulent light appeared overhead, and three times spilled
streams that rode crazy crescendo down to splash upon the stone fang curving
blackly into the wind, about a quarter mile up the slope.
When Tak's vision cleared, he saw that which he did now understand. It
was as though each bolt that had fallen had left a part of itself, standing,
swaying in the gray air, pulsing fires, despite the wetness that came
steadily down upon the ground.
Then Tak heard the laughter-- or was it a ghost sound left in his ears
by the recent thunder?
No, it was laughter-- gigantic, unhuman!
After a time, there came a howl of rage. Then there was another flash,
another rumble.
Another funnel of fire swayed beside the stone fang.
Tak lay still for about five minutes. Then it came again-- the howl,
followed by three bright flashes and the crash.
Now there were seven pillars of fire. Dared he approach, skirting these
things, spying upon the fang peak from its opposite side?
And if he did, and if-- as he felt-- Sam was somehow involved, what
good could he do if the Enlightened One himself could not handle the
situation?
He had no answer, but he found himself moving forward, crouched low in
the damp grass, swinging far to his left.
When he was halfway there it happened again, and ten of the things
towered, red and gold and yellow, drifting and returning, drifting and
returning, as though their bases were rooted to the ground.
He crouched there wet and shivering, examined his courage and found it
to be a small thing indeed. Yet, he pushed on until he was parallel to the
strange place, then past it.
He drew up behind it, finding himself in the midst of many large
stones. Grateful for their shelter and the cover they provided against
observation from below, he inched forward, never taking his eyes from the
fang.
He could see now that it was partly hollow. There was a dry, shallow
cave at its base, and two figures knelt within it. Holy men at prayer? He
wondered.
Then it happened. The most frightful flashing he had ever seen came
down upon the stones-- not once, or for a mere instant. It was as if a
fire-tongued beast licked and licked about the stone, growling as it did so,
for perhaps a quarter of a minute.
When Tak opened his eyes, he counted twenty of the blazing towers.
One of the holy men leaned forward, gestured. The other laughed. The
sound carried to where Tak lay, and the words: "Eyes of the serpent! Mine
now!"
"What is the quantity?" asked the second, and Tak knew it to be the
voice of Great-Souled Sam.
"Twice, or none at all!" roared the other, and he leaned forward,
rocked back, then gestured as Sam had done.
"Nina from Srinagina!" he chanted, and leaned, rocked, and gestured
once more.
"Sacred seven," Sam said softly.
The other howled.
Tak closed his eyes and covered his ears, expecting what might come
after that howl.
Nor was he mistaken.
When the blaze and the tumult had passed, he looked down upon an eerily
illuminated scene. He did not bother counting. It was apparent that forty of
the flame like things now hung about the place, casting their weird glow:
their number had doubled.
The ritual continued. On the left hand of the Buddha, the iron ring
glowed with a pale, greenish light all its own.
He heard the words "Twice, or none at all" repeated again, and he heard
the Buddha say "Sacred seven" once more, in reply.
This time he thought the mountainside would come apart beneath him.
This time he thought the brightness was an afterimage, tattooed upon his
retina through closed eyelids. But he was wrong.
When he opened his eyes it was to look upon a veritable army of
shifting thunderbolts. Their blaze jabbed into his brain, and he shaded his
eyes to stare down below.
"Well, Raltariki?" asked Sam, and a bright emerald light played about
his left hand.
"One time again, Siddhartha. Twice, or not at all."
The rains let up for a moment, and, in the great blaze from the host on
the hillside, Tak saw that the one called Raltariki had the head of a water
buffalo and an extra pair of arms.
He shivered.
He covered his eyes and ears and clenched his teeth, waiting. After a
time, it happened. It roared and blazed, going on and on until finally he
lost consciousness.
When he recovered his senses, there was only a grayness and a gentle
rain between himself and the sheltering rock. At its base only one figure
sat, and it did not wear horns or appear to possess more arms than the
customary two.
Tak did not move. He waited.
"This," said Yama, handing him an aerosol, "is demon repellent. In the
future, I suggest you annoint yourself thoroughly if you intend venturing
very far from the monastery. I had thought this region free of the Rakasha,
or I would have given it to you sooner."
Tak accepted the container, placed it on the table before him.
They sat in Yama's chambers, having taken a light meal there. Yama
leaned back in his chair, a glass of the Buddha's wine in his left hand, a
half-filled decanter in his right.
"Then the one called Raltariki is really a demon?" asked Tak.
"Yes-- and no," said Yama, "If by 'demon' you mean a malefic,
supernatural creature, possessed of great powers, life span and the ability
to temporarily assume virtually any shape-- then the answer is no. This is
the generally accepted definition, but it is untrue in one respect."
"Oh? And what may that be?"
"It is not a supernatural creature."
"But it is all those other things?"
"Yes."
"Then I fail to see what difference it makes whether it be supernatural
or not-- so long as it is malefic, possesses great powers and life span and
has the ability to change its shape at will."
"Ah, but it makes a great deal of difference, you see. It is the
difference between the unknown and the unknowable, between science and
fantasy-- it is a matter of essence. The four points of the compass be
logic, knowledge, wisdom and the unknown. Some do bow in that final
direction. Others advance upon it. To bow before the one is to lose sight of
the three. I may submit to the unknown, but never to the unknowable. The man
who bows in that final direction is either a saint or a fool. I have no use
for either."
Tak shrugged and sipped his wine. "But of the demons. . . ?"
"Knowable. I did experiment with them for many years, and I was one of
the Four who descended into Hellwell, if you recall, after Taraka fled Lord
Agni at Palamaidsu. Are you not Tak of the Archives?"
"I was."
"Did you read then of the earliest recorded contacts with the Rakasha?"
"I read the accounts of the days of their binding. . . "
"Then you know that they are the native inhabitants of this world, that
they were present here before the arrival of Man from vanished Urath."
"Yes."
"They are creatures of energy, rather than matter. Their own traditions
have it that once they wore bodies, lived in cities. Their quest for
personal immortality, however, led them along a different path from that
which Man followed. They found a way to perpetuate themselves as stable
fields of energy. They abandoned their bodies to live forever as vortices of
force. But pure intellect they are not. They carried with them their
complete egos, and born of matter they do ever lust after the flesh. Though
they can assume its appearance for a time, they cannot return to it
unassisted. For ages they did drift aimlessly about this world. Then the
arrival of Man stirred them from their quiescence. They took on the shapes
of his nightmares to devil him. This is why they had to be defeated and
bound, far beneath the Ratnagaris. We could not destroy them all. We could
not permit them to continue their attempts to possess the machines of
incarnation and the bodies of men. So they were trapped and contained in
great magnetic bottles."
"Yet Sam freed many to do his will," said Tak.
"Aye. He made and kept a nightmare pact, so that some of them do still
walk the world. Of all men, they respect perhaps only Siddhartha. And with
all men do they share one great vice."
"That being. . .?"
"They do dearly love to gamble. . . . They will make game for any
stakes, and gambling debts are their only point of honor. This must be so,
or they would not hold the confidence of other gamesters and would so lose
that which is perhaps their only pleasure. Their powers being great, even
princes will make game with them, hoping to win their services. Kingdoms
have been lost in this fashion."
"If," said Tak, "as you feel, Sam was playing one of the ancient games
with Raltariki, what could the stakes have been?"
Yama finished his wine, refilled the glass. "Sam is a fool. No, he is
not. He is a gambler. There is a difference. The Rakasha do control lesser
orders of energy beings. Sam, through that ring he wears, does now command a
guard of fire elementals, which he won from Raltariki. These are deadly,
mindless creatures-- and each bears the force of a thunderbolt."
Tak finished his wine. "But what stakes could Sam have brought to the
game?"
Yama sighed. "All my work, all our efforts for over half a century."
"You mean-- his body?"
Yama nodded. "A human body is the highest inducement any demon might be
offered."
"Why should Sam risk such a venture?"
Yama stared at Tak, not seeing him. "It must have been the only way he
could call upon his life-will, to bind him again to his task
-- by placing himself in jeopardy, by casting his very existence with
each roll of the dice."
Tak poured himself another glass of wine and gulped it. "That is
unknowable to me," he said.
But Yama shook his head. "Unknown, only," he told him. "Sam is not
quite a saint, nor is he a fool."
"Almost, though," Yama decided, and that night he squirted demon
repellent about the monastery.
The following morning, a small man approached the monastery and seated
himself before its front entrance, placing a begging bowl on the ground at
his feet. He wore a single, threadbare garment of coarse, brown cloth, which
reached to his ankles. A black patch covered his left eye. What remained of
his hair was dark and very long. His sharp nose, small chin, and high, flat
ears gave to his face a foxlike appearance. His skin was tight-drawn and
well-weathered. His single, green eye seemed never to blink.
He sat there for perhaps twenty minutes before one of Sam's monks
noticed him and mentioned the fact to one of Ratri's dark-robed Order. This
monk located a priest and passed the information to him. The priest, anxious
to impress the goddess with the virtues of her followers, sent for the
beggar to be brought in and fed, offered new garments and given a cell in
which to sleep for as long as he chose to remain.
The beggar accepted the food with the courtesies of a Brahmin, but
declined to eat anything other than bread and fruit. He accepted, too, the
dark garment of Ratri's Order, casting aside his begrimed smock. Then he
looked upon the cell and the fresh sleeping mat that had been laid for him.
"I do thank you, worthy priest," he said, in a voice rich and resonant,
and altogether larger than his person. "I do thank you, and pray your
goddess smile upon you for your kindness and generosity in her name."
The priest smiled at this himself, and still hoped that Ratri might
pass along the hall at that moment, to witness his kindness and generosity
in her name. She did not, however. Few of her Order had actually seen her,
even on the night when she put on her power and walked among them: for only
those of the saffron robe had attended Sam's awakening and were certain as
to his identity. She generally moved about the monastery while her followers
were at prayer or after they had retired for the evening. She slept mainly
during the day; when she did cross their sight she was well-muffled and
cloaked; her wishes and orders she communicated directly to Gandhiji, the
head of the Order, who was ninety-three years old this cycle, and more than
half blind.
Consequently, both her monks and those of the saffron robe wondered as
to her appearance and sought to gain possible favor in her eyes. It was said
that her blessing would ensure one's being incarnated as a Brahmin. Only
Gandhiji did not care, for he had accepted the way of the real death.
Since she did not pass along the hall as they stood there, the priest
prolonged the conversation, "I am Balarma," he stated. "May I inquire as to
your name, good sir, and perhaps your destination?"
"I am Aram," said the beggar, "who has taken upon himself a ten-year
vow of poverty, and of silence for seven. Fortunately, the seven have
elapsed, that I may now speak to thank my benefactors and answer their
questions. I am heading up into the mountains to find me a cave where I may
meditate and pray. I may, perhaps, accept your kindly hospitality for a few
days, before proceeding on with my journey."
"Indeed," said Balarma, "we should be honored if a holy one were to see
fit to bless our monastery with his presence. We will make you welcome. If
there is anything you wish to assist you along your path, and we may be able
to grant this thing, please name it to us."
Aram fixed him with his unblinking green eye and said, "The monk who
first observed me did not wear the robe of your Order." He touched the dark
garment as he said it. "Instead, I believe my poor eye did behold one of
another color."
"Yes," said Balarma, "for the followers of the Buddha do shelter here
among us, resting awhile from their wanderings."
"That is truly interesting," said Aram, "for I should like to speak
with them and perhaps learn more of their Way."
"You should have ample opportunity if you choose to remain among us for
a time."
"This then shall I do. For how long will they remain?"
"I do not know."
Aram nodded. "When might I speak with them?"
"This evening there will be an hour when all the monks are gathered
together and free to speak as they would, save for those who have taken vows
of silence."
"I shall pass the interval till then in prayer," said Aram. "Thank
you."
Each bowed slightly, and Aram entered his room.
That evening, Aram attended the community hour of the monks. Those of
both Orders did mingle at this time and engage in conversation. Sam did not
attend it himself, nor did Tak; and Yama never attended it in person.
Aram seated himself at the long table in the refectory, across from
several of the Buddha's monks. He talked for some time with these,
discoursing on doctrine and practice, caste and creed, weather and the
affairs of the day.
"It seems strange," he said after a while, "that those of your Order
have come so far to the south and the west so suddenly."
"We are a wandering Order," replied the monk to whom he had spoken. "We
follow the wind. We follow our hearts."
"To the land of rusted soil in the season of lightnings? Is there
perhaps some revelation to occur hereabout, which might be enlarging to my
spirit were I to behold it?"
"The entire universe is a revelation," said the monk. "All things
change, yet all things remain. Day follows night. . . each day is different,
yet each is day. Much of the world is illusion, yet the forms of that
illusion follow a pattern which is a part of divine reality."
"Yes, yes," said Aram. "In the ways of illusion and reality am I
well-versed, but by my inquiry I did mean to know whether perhaps a new
teacher had arisen in this vicinity, or some old one returned, or mayhap a
divine manifestation, the presence of which it might profit my soul to be
aware."
As he spoke, the beggar brushed from the table before him a red,
crawling beetle, the size of a thumbnail, and he moved his sandal as if to
crush it.
"Pray, brother, do not harm it," said the monk.
"But they are all over the place, and the Masters of Karma have stated that
a man cannot be made to return as an insect, and the killing of an insect is
a karmically inoperative act."
"Nevertheless," said the monk, "all life being one, in this monastery
all do practice the doctrine of ahimsa and refrain from taking life of any
sort."
"Yet," said Aram, "Patanjali does state that it is the intention rather
than the act which governs. Therefore, if I killed with love rather than
malice, it would be as if I had not killed. I confess that this was not the
case and that malice was present-- therefore, even if I did not kill I do
bear the burden of the guilt because of the presence of that intention. So I
could step upon it now and be none the worse for it, according to the
principle of ahimsa. Since I am a guest, however, I of course respect the
practice and do not do this thing." With this, he moved his sandal away from
the insect, which stood immobile, reddish antennae pricked upward.
"Indeed, he is a scholar," said one of the Order of Ratri.
Aram smiled. "Thank you, but it is not so," he stated. "I am only a
humble seeker of truth, and on occasion in the past have I been privileged
to overhear the discourses of the learned. Would that I might be so
privileged again! If there were some great teacher or scholar in the
vicinity, then I would most surely walk across a bed of hot coals to sit at
his feet and to hear his words or observe his example. If-- "
He stopped then, for all eyes had suddenly turned upon the doorway at
his back. He did not move his head, but reached out to crush a beetle that
stood near his hand. The tip of a small crystal and two tiny wires protruded
through the broken chitin of its back.
Then he turned, his green eye sweeping across the row of monks seated
between himself and the doorway, and he looked upon Yama, who wore breeches,
boots, shirt, sash, cloak and gloves all of red, and about whose head was
twisted a turban the color of blood.
"'If?'" said Yama. "You were saying 'if'? If some sage or some avatar
of the godhead resided in the vicinity, you should like to make his
acquaintance? Is that what you were saying, stranger?"
The beggar rose from the table. He bowed. "I am Aram," he stated, "a
fellow seeker and traveler with all who wish enlightenment."
Yama did not return the salute. "Why do you spell your name backward,
Lord of Illusion, when all your words and actions herald it before you?"
The beggar shrugged. "I do not understand what you say."
But the smile came again to his lips. "I am one who seeks the Path and
the Right," he added.
"I find that hard to believe, after witnessing at least a thousand
years of your treachery."
"You speak of the lifetime of gods."
"Unfortunately, I do. You have made a serious mistake, Mara."
"What may that be?"
"You feel that you must be permitted to leave here alive."
"I admit that I anticipate doing so."
"Not considering the numerous accidents which might befall a lone
traveler in this wild region."
"I have been a lone traveler for many years. Accidents always happen to
other people."
"You might believe that even if your body were destroyed here, your
atman would be transferred remotely to another body located elsewhere. I
understand that someone has deciphered my notes, and the trick is now
possible."
The beggar's brows moved a quarter of an inch lower and closer
together.
"You do not realize the forces which even now contain this building,
defending against any such transfer."
The beggar stepped to the center of the room. "Yama," he stated, "you
are a fool if you think to match your puny fallen powers against those of
the Dreamer."
"Perhaps this is so. Lord Mara," Yama replied, "but I have waited too
long for this opportunity to postpone it further. Remember my promise at
Keenset? If you wish to continue your chain of existence you will have to
pass through this, the only door to this room, which I bar. Nothing beyond
this room can help you now."
Mara then raised his hands, and the fires were born.
Everything was flaming. Flames leapt from the stone walls, the tables,
the robes of the monks. Smoke billowed and curled about the room. Yama stood
in the midst of a conflagration, but he did not move.
"Is that the best you can do?" he asked. "Your flames are everywhere,
but nothing burns."
Mara clapped his hands and the flames vanished.
In their place, its swaying head held at almost twice the height of a
man, its silver hood fanned, the mechobra drew into its S-shaped strike
position.
Yama ignored it, his shadowy gaze reaching now like the probe of a dark
insect, boring into Mara's single eye.
The mechobra faded in mid-strike. Yama strode forward.
Mara fell back a pace.
They stood thus for perhaps three heartbeats, then Yama moved forward
two paces farther and Mara backed away again. Perspiration blistered upon
both their brows.
The beggar now stood taller and his hair was heavier; he was thicker
about the waist and broader across the shoulders. A certain grace, not
previously apparent, accompanied all his movements.
He fell back another step.
"Yes, Mara, there is a deathgod," said Yama between clenched teeth.
"Fallen or no, the real death dwells in my eyes. You must meet them. When
you reach the wall you can back no farther. Feel the strength go out of your
limbs. Feel the coldness begin in your hands and your feet."
Mara's teeth bared in a snarl. His neck was as thick as a bull's. His
biceps were as big about as a man's thighs. His chest was a barrel of
strength and his legs were like great trees of the forest.
"Coldness?" he asked, extending his arms. "I can break a giant with
these hands, Yama. What are you but a banished carrion god? Your frown may
claim the aged and the infirm. Your eyes may chill dumb animals and those of
the lower classes of men. I stand as high above you as a star above the
ocean's bottom."
Yama's red-gloved hands fell like a pair of cobras upon his throat.
"Then try that strength which you so mock. Dreamer. You have taken on the
appearance of power. Use it! Best me not with words!"
His cheeks and forehead bloomed scarlet as Yama's hands tightened upon
his throat. His eye seemed to leap, a green search-light sweeping the world.
Mara fell to his knees. "Enough, Lord Yama!" he gasped. "Wouldst slay
thyself?"
He changed. His features flowed, as though he lay beneath restless
waters.
Yama looked down upon his own face, saw his own red hands plucking at
his wrists.
"You grow desperate now, Mara, as the life leaves you. But Yama is no
child, that he fears breaking the mirror you have become. Try your last, or
die like a man, it is all the same in the end."
But once more there was a flowing and a change.
This time Yama hesitated, breaking his strength.
Her bronze hair fell upon his hands. Her pale eyes pleaded with him.
Caught about her throat was a necklace of ivory skulls, but slightly paler
than her flesh. Her sari was the color of blood. Her hands rested upon his
own, almost caressing. . .
"Goddess!" he hissed.
"You would not slay Kali . . . ? Durga . . . ?" she choked.
"Wrong again, Mara," he whispered. "Did you not know that each man
kills the thing he loved?" and with this his hands twisted, and there was a
sound of breaking bones.
"Tenfold be your damnation," he said, his eyes tightly closed. "There
shall be no rebirth."
His hands came open then. A tall, nobly proportioned man lay upon the
floor at his feet, his head resting upon his right shoulder.
His eye had finally closed.
Yama turned the corpse with the toe of his boot. "Build a pyre and burn
this body," he said to the monks, not turning toward them. "Spare none of
the rites. One of the highest has died this day."
Then he removed his eyes from this work of his hands, turned upon his
heel and left the room.
That evening the lightnings fled across the skies and the rain came
down like bullets from Heaven.
The four of them sat in the chamber in the high tower that rose from
the northeast corner of the monastery.
Yama paced the room, stopping at the window each time he came to it.
The others sat watching him, listening.
"They suspect," he told them, "but they do not know. They would not
ravage the monastery of a fellow god, displaying before men the division of
their ranks-- not unless they were certain. They were not certain, so they
investigated. This means that time is still with us."
They nodded.
"A Brahmin who renounced the world to find his soul passed this way,
suffered an accident, died here the real death. His body was burnt and his
ashes cast into the river that leads to the sea. This is what occurred. . .
. The wandering monks of the Enlightened One were visiting at the time. They
moved on shortly after this occurrence. Who knows where they went?"
Tak stood as nearly erect as he could.
"Lord Yama," he stated, "while it may hold for a week, a month --
possibly even longer-- this story will come apart in the hands of the Master
to judge the first of any of those here present in this monastery who pass
within the Halls of Karma. Under the circumstances, I believe some of them
may achieve early judgment for just this reason. What then?"
Yama rolled a cigarette with care and precision. "It must be arranged
that what I said is what actually occurred."
"How can that be? When a man's brain is subject to karmic play-back,
all the events he has witnessed in his most recent cycle of life are laid
out before his judge and the machine, like a scroll."
"That is correct," said Yama. "And have you. Tak of the Archives, never
heard of a palimpsest-- a scroll which has been used previously, cleaned,
and then used again?"
"Of course, but the mind is not a scroll."
"No?" Yama smiled. "Well, it was your simile to begin with, not mine.
What's truth, anyway? Truth is what you make it."
He lit his cigarette. "These monks have witnessed a strange and
terrible thing," he continued. "They saw me take on my Aspect and wield an
Attribute. They saw Mara do the same-- here, in this monastery where we have
revived the principle of ahimsa. They are aware that a god may do such
things without karmic burden, but the shock was great and the impression
vivid. And the final burning is still to come. By the time of that burning,
the tale I have told you must be true in their minds."
"How?" asked Ratri.
"This very night, this very hour," he said, "while the image of the act
flames within their consciousness and their thoughts are troubled, the new
truth will be forged and nailed into place. . . . Sam, you have rested long
enough. This thing is now yours to do. You must preach them a sermon. You
must call forth within them those nobler sentiments and higher qualities of
spirit which make men subject to divine meddling. Ratri and I will then
combine our powers and a new truth will be born."
Sam shifted and dropped his eyes. "I don't know if I can do it. It's
been so long. . ."
"Once a Buddha, always a Buddha, Sam. Dust off some of your old
parables. You have about fifteen minutes."
Sam held out his hand. "Give me some tobacco and a paper."
He accepted the package, rolled himself a cigarette. "Light? . . .
Thanks."
He drew in deeply, exhaled, coughed. "I'm tired of lying to them," he
finally said. "I guess that's what it really is."
"Lying?" asked Yama. "Who asked you to lie about anything? Quote them
the Sermon on the Mount, if you want. Or something from the Popul Voh, or
the Iliad. I don't care what you say. Just stir them a bit, soothe them a
little. That's all I ask."
"Then what?"
"Then? Then I shall proceed to save them-- and us!"
Sam nodded slowly. "When you put it that way . . . but I'm a little out
of shape when it comes to this sort of thing. Sure, I'll find me a couple
truths and throw in a few pieties-- but make it twenty minutes."
"Twenty minutes, then. And afterward we pack. Tomorrow we leave for
Khaipur."
"So soon?" asked Tak.
Yama shook his head. "So late," he said.
The monks were seated upon the floor of the refectory. The tables had
been moved back against the walls. The insects had vanished. Outside, the
rain continued to fall.
Great-Souled Sam, the Enlightened One, entered and seated himself
before them.
Ratri came in dressed as a Buddhist nun, and veiled.
Yama and Ratri moved to the back of the room and settled to the floor.
Somewhere, Tak too, was listening.
Sam sat with his eyes closed for several minutes, then said softly:
"I have many names, and none of them matter." He opened his eyes
slightly then, but he did not move his head. He looked upon nothing in
particular.
"Names are not important," he said. "To speak is to name names, but to
speak is not important. A thing happens once that has never happened before.
Seeing it, a man looks upon reality. He cannot tell others what he has seen.
Others wish to know, however, so they question him saying, 'What is it like,
this thing you have seen?' So he tries to tell them. Perhaps he has seen the
very first fire in the world. He tells them, 'It is red, like a poppy, but
through it dance other colors. It has no form, like water, flowing
everywhere. It is warm, like the sun of summer, only warmer. It exists for a
time upon a piece of wood, and then the wood is gone, as though it were
eaten, leaving behind that which is black and can be sifted like sand. When
the wood is gone, it too is gone.' Therefore, the hearers must think reality
is like a poppy, like water, like the sun, like that which eats and
excretes. They think it is like to anything that they are told it is like by
the man who has known it. But they have not looked upon fire. They cannot
really know it. They can only know of it. But fire comes again into the
world, many times. More men look upon fire. After a time, fire is as common
as grass and clouds and the air they breathe. They see that, while it is
like a poppy, it is not a poppy, while it is like water, it is not water,
while it is like the sun, it is not the sun, and while it is like that which
eats and passes wastes, it is not that which eats and passes wastes, but
something different from each of these apart or all of these together. So
they look upon this new thing and they make a new word to call it. They call
it 'fire.'
"If they come upon one who still has not seen it and they speak to him
of fire, he does not know what they mean. So they, in turn, fall back upon
telling him what fire is like. As they do so, they know from their own
experience that what they are telling him is not the truth, but only a part
of it. They know that this man will never know reality from their words,
though all the words in the world are theirs to use. He must look upon the
fire, smell of it, warm his hands by it, stare into its heart, or remain
forever ignorant. Therefore, 'fire' does not matter, 'earth' and 'air' and
'water' do not matter. 'I' do not matter. No word matters. But man forgets
reality and remembers words. The more words he remembers, the cleverer do
his fellows esteem him. He looks upon the great transformations of the
world, but he does not see them as they were seen when man looked upon
reality for the first time. Their names come to his lips and he smiles as he
tastes them, thinking he knows them in the naming. The thing that has never
happened before is still happening. It is still a miracle. The great burning
blossom squats, flowing, upon the limb of the world, excreting the ash of
the world, and being none of these things I have named and at the same time
all of them, and this is reality-- the Nameless.
"Therefore, I charge you-- forget the names you bear, forget the words
I speak as soon as they are uttered. Look, rather, upon the Nameless within
yourselves, which arises as I address it. It hearkens not to my words, but
to the reality within me, of which it is part. This is the atman, which
hears me rather than my words. All else is unreal. To define is to lose. The
essence of all things is the Nameless. The Nameless is unknowable, mightier
even than Brahma. Things pass, but the essence remains. You sit, therefore,
in the midst of a dream.
"Essence dreams it a dream of form. Forms pass, but the essence
remains, dreaming new dreams. Man names these dreams and thinks to have
captured the essence, not knowing that he invokes the unreal. These stones,
these walls, these bodies you see seated about you are poppies and water and
the sun. They are the dreams of the Nameless. They are fire, if you like.
"Occasionally, there may come a dreamer who is aware that he is
dreaming. He may control something of the dream-stuff, bending it to his
will, or he may awaken into greater self-knowledge. If he chooses the path
of self-knowledge, his glory is great and he shall be for all ages like unto
a star. If he chooses instead the way of the Tantras, combining Samsara and
Nirvana, comprehending the world and continuing to live in it, this one is
mighty among dreamers. He may be mighty for good or for ill, as we look upon
him-- though these terms, too, are meaningless, outside of the namings of
Samsara.
"To dwell within Samsara, however, is to be subject to the works of
those who are mighty among dreamers. If they be mighty for good, it is a
golden time. If they be mighty for ill, it is a time of darkness. The dream
may turn to nightmare.
"It is written that to live is to suffer. This is so, say the sages,
for man must work off his burden of Karma if he is to achieve enlightenment.
For this reason, say the sages, what does it profit a man to struggle within
a dream against that which is his lot, which is the path he must follow to
attain liberation? In the light of eternal values, say the sages, the
suffering is as nothing; in the terms of Samsara, say the sages, it leads to
that which is good. What justification, then, has a man to struggle against
those who be mighty for ill?"
He paused for a moment, raised his head higher.
"This night the Lord of Illusion passed among you-- Mara, mighty among
dreamers-- mighty for ill. He did come upon another who may work with the
stuff of dreams in a different way. He did meet with Dharma, who may expel a
dreamer from his dream. They did struggle, and the Lord Mara is no more. Why
did they struggle, deathgod against illusionist? You say their ways are
incomprehensible, being the ways of gods. This is not the answer.
"The answer, the justification, is the same for men as it is for gods.
Good or ill, say the sages, mean nothing for they are of Samsara. Agree with
the sages, who have taught our people for as far as the memory of man may
reach. Agree, but consider also a thing of which the sages do not speak.
This thing is 'beauty,' which is a word-- but look behind the word and
consider the Way of the Nameless. And what is the way of the Nameless? It is
the Way of Dream. And why does the Nameless dream? This thing is not known
to any dweller within Samsara. So ask, rather, what does the Nameless dream?
"The Nameless, of which we are all a part, does dream form. And what is
the highest attribute any form may possess? It is beauty. The Nameless,
then, is an artist. The problem, therefore, is not one of good or evil, but
one of esthetics. To struggle against those who are mighty among dreamers
and are mighty for ill, or ugliness, is not to struggle for that which the
sages have taught us to be meaningless in terms of Samsara or Nirvana, but
rather it is to struggle for the symmetrical dreaming of a dream, in terms
of the rhythm and the point, the balance and the antithesis which will make
it a thing of beauty. Of this, the sages say nothing. This truth is so
simple that they have obviously overlooked it. For this reason, I am bound
by the esthetics of the situation to call it to your attention. To struggle
against the dreamers who dream ugliness, be they men or gods, cannot but be
the will of the Nameless. This struggle will also bear suffering, and so
one's karmic burden will be lightened thereby, just as it would be by
enduring the ugliness; but this suffering is productive of a higher end in
the light of the eternal values of which the sages so often speak.
"Therefore, I say unto you, the esthetics of what you have witnessed
this evening were of a high order. You may ask me, then, 'How am I to know
that which is beautiful and that which is ugly, and be moved to act
thereby?' This question, I say, you must answer for yourself. To do this,
first forget what I have spoken, for I have said nothing. Dwell now upon the
Nameless." He raised his right hand and bowed his head.
Yama stood, Ratri stood, Tak appeared upon a table.
The four of them left together, knowing the machineries of Karma to
have been defeated for a time.
They walked through the jagged brilliance of the morning, beneath the
Bridge of the Gods. Tall fronds, still wet with the night's rain, glistened
at the sides of the trail. The tops of trees and the peaks of the distant
mountains rippled beyond the rising vapors. The day was cloudless. The faint
breezes of morning still bore a trace of the night's cold. The clicking and
buzzing and chirping of the jungle accompanied the monks as they walked. The
monastery from which they had departed was only partly visible above the
upper reaches of the treetops; high in the air above it, a twisting line of
smoke endorsed the heavens.
Ratri's servitors bore her litter in the midst of the moving party of
monks, servants and her small guard of warriors. Sam and Yama walked near
the head of the band. Silent overhead, Tak followed, passing among leaves
and branches, unseen.
"The pyre still blazes," said Yama.
"Yes."
"They burn the wanderer who suffered a heart attack as he took his rest
among them."
"This is true."
"For a spur of the moment thing, you came up with a fairly engaging
sermon."
"Thanks."
"Do you really believe what you preached?"
Sam laughed. "I'm very gullible when it comes to my own words. I
believe everything I say, though I know I'm a liar."
Yama snorted. "The rod of Trimurti still falls upon the backs of men.
Nirriti stirs within his dark lair; he harasses the seaways of the south. Do
you plan on spending another lifetime indulging in metaphysics-- to find new
justification for opposing your enemies? Your talk last night sounded as if
you have reverted to considering why again, rather than how."
"No," said Sam, "I just wanted to try another line on the audience. It
is difficult to stir rebellion among those to whom all things are good.
There is no room for evil in their minds, despite the fact that they suffer
it constantly. The slave upon the rack who knows that he will be born
again-- perhaps as a fat merchant -- if he suffers willingly-- his outlook
is not the same as that of a man with but one life to live. He can bear
anything, knowing that great as his present pain may be, his future pleasure
will rise higher. If such a one does not choose to believe in good or evil,
perhaps then beauty and ugliness can be made to serve him as well. Only the
names have been changed."
"This, then, is the new, official party line?" asked Yama.
"It is," said Sam.
Yama's hand passed through an invisible slit in his robe and emerged
with a dagger, which he raised in salute.
"To beauty," he said. "Down with ugliness!"
A wave of silence passed across the jungle. All the life-sounds about
them ceased.
Yama raised one hand, returning the dagger to its hidden sheath with
the other.
"Halt!" he cried out.
He looked upward, squinting against the sun, head cocked to his right.
"Off the trail! Into the brush!" he called.
They moved. Saffron-cloaked bodies flashed from off the trail. Ratri's
litter was borne in among the trees. She now stood at Yama's side.
"What is it?" she asked.
"Listen!"
It came then, riding down the sky on a blast of sound. It flashed above
the peaks of the mountains, crossed over the monastery, whipping the smokes
into invisibility. Explosions of sound trumpeted its coming, and the air
quaked as it cut its way through the wind and the light.
It was a great-looped tau cross, a tail of fire streaming behind it.
"Destroyer come a-hunting," said Yama.
"Thunder chariot!" cried one of the mercenaries, making a sign with his
hand.
"Shiva passes," said a monk, eyes wide with fear. "The Destroyer . . ."
"Had I known at the time how well I wrought," said Yama, "I might have
numbered its days intentionally. Occasionally, do I regret my genius."
It passed beneath the Bridge of the Gods, swung above the jungle, fell
away to the south. Its roar gradually diminished as it departed in that
direction. Then there was silence.
A bird made a brief piping noise. Another replied to it. Then all the
sounds of life began again and the travelers returned to their trail.
"He will be back," said Yama, and this was true. Twice more that day
did they have to leave the trail as the thunder chariot passed above their
heads. On the last occasion, it circled the monastery, possibly observing
the funeral rites being conducted there. Then it crossed over the mountains
and was gone.
That night they made camp under the stars, and on the second night they
did the same.
The third day brought them to the river Deeva and the small port city
of Koona. It was there that they found the transportation they wished, and
they set forth that same evening, heading south by bark to where the Deeva
joined with the mighty Vedra, and then proceeded onward to pass at last the
wharves of Khaipur, their destination.
As they flowed with the river, Sam listened to its sounds. He stood
upon the dark deck, his hands resting on the rail. He stared out across the
waters where the bright heavens rose and fell, star bending back upon star.
It was then that the night addressed him in the voice of Ratri, from
somewhere nearby.
"You have passed this way before, Tathagatha."
"Many times," he replied. "The Deeva is a thing of beauty under the
stars, in its rippling and its folding."
"Indeed."
"We go now to Khaipur and the Palace of Kama. What will you do when we
arrive?"
"I will spend some time in meditation, goddess."
"Upon what shall you meditate?"
"Upon my past lives and the mistakes they each contained. I must review
my own tactics as well as those of the enemy."
"Yama thinks the Golden Cloud to have changed you."
"Perhaps it has."
"He believes it to have softened you, weakened you. You have always
posed as a mystic, but now he believes you have become one -- to your own
undoing, to our undoing."
He shook his head, turned around. But he did not see her. Stood she
there invisible, or had she withdrawn? He spoke softly and without
inflection:
"I shall tear these stars from out the heavens," he stated, "and hurl
them in the faces of the gods, if this be necessary. I shall blaspheme in
every Temple throughout the land. I shall take lives as a fisherman takes
fish, by the net, if this be necessary. I shall mount me again up to the
Celestial City, though every step be a flame or a naked sword and the way be
guarded by tigers. One day will the gods look down from Heaven and see me
upon the stair, bringing them the gift they fear most. That day will the new
Yuga begin.
"But first I must meditate for a time," he finished.
He turned back again and stared out over the waters.
A shooting star burnt its way across the heavens. The ship moved on.
The night sighed about him.
Sam stared ahead, remembering.
II
One time a minor rajah from a minor principality came with his retinue
into Mahartha, the city that is called Gateway of the South and Capital of
the Dawn, there to purchase him a new body. This was in the days when the
thread of destiny might yet be plucked from out a gutter, the gods were less
formal, the demons still bound, and the Celestial City yet occasionally open
to men. This is the story of how the prince did bait the one-armed receiver
of devotions before the Temple, incurring the disfavor of Heaven for his
presumption. . .Few are the beings born again among men; morenumerous are those born again elsewhere.Anguttara-nikaya (I, 35)
Riding into the capital of dawn at mid-afternoon, the prince, mounted
upon a white mare, passed up the broad avenue of Surya, his hundred
retainers massed at his back, his adviser Strake at his left hand, his
scimitar in his sash, and a portion of his wealth in the bags his pack
horses bore.
The heat crashed down upon the turbans of the men, washed past them,
came up again from the roadway.
A chariot moved slowly by, headed in the opposite direction, its driver
squinting up at the banner the chief retainer bore; a courtesan stood at the
gateway to her pavilion, studying the traffic; and a pack of mongrel dogs
followed at the heels of the horses, barking.
The prince was tall, and his mustaches were the color of smoke. His
hands, dark as coffee, were marked with the stiff ridges of his veins.
Still, his posture was erect, and his eyes were like the eyes of an ancient
bird, electric and clear.
Ahead, a crowd gathered to watch the passing troop. Horses were ridden
only by those who could afford them, and few were that wealthy. The slizzard
was the common mount-- a scaled creature with snakelike neck, many teeth,
dubious lineage, brief life span and a vicious temperament; the horse, for
some reason, having grown barren in recent generations.
The prince rode on, into the capital of dawn, the watchers watching.
Passing, they turned off the avenue of the sun and headed up a narrower
thoroughfare. They moved by the low buildings of commerce, the great shops
of the great merchants, the banks, the Temples, the inns, the brothels. They
passed on, until at the fringe of the business district they came upon the
princely hostel of Hawkana, the Most Perfect Host. They drew rein at the
gate, for Hawkana himself stood outside the walls, simply dressed,
fashionably corpulent and smiling, waiting to personally conduct the white
mare within.
"Welcome, Lord Siddhartha!" he called in a loud voice, so that all
within earshot might know the identity of his guest. "Welcome to this
well-nightingaled vicinity, and to the perfumed gardens and marble halls of
this humble establishment! To your riders welcome also, who have ridden a
goodly ride with you and no doubt seek subtle refreshment and dignified ease
as well as yourself. Within, you will find all things to your liking, I
trust, as you have upon the many occasions in the past when you have tarried
within these halls in the company of other princely guests and noble
visitors, too numerous to mention, such as -- "
"And a good afternoon to you also, Hawkana!" cried the prince, for the
day was hot and the innkeeper's speeches, like rivers, always threatened to
flow on forever. "Let us enter quickly within your walls, where, among their
other virtues too numerous to mention, it is also cool."
Hawkana nodded briskly, and taking the mare by the bridle led her
through the gateway and into his courtyard; there, he held the stirrup while
the prince dismounted, then gave the horses into the keeping of his stable
hands and dispatched a small boy through the gateway to clean the street
where they had waited.
Within the hostel, the men were bathed, standing in the marble bath
hall while servants poured water over their shoulders. Then did they annoint
themselves after the custom of the warrior caste, put on fresh garments and
passed into the hall of dining.
The meal lasted the entire afternoon, until the warriors lost count of
the courses. At the right hand of the prince, who sat at the head of the
long, low, serving board, three dancers wove their way through an intricate
pattern, finger cymbals clicking, faces bearing the proper expressions for
the proper moments of the dance, as four veiled musicians played the
traditional music of the hours. The table was covered with a richly woven
tapestry of blue, brown, yellow, red and green, wherein was worked a series
of hunting and battle scenes: riders mounted on slizzard and horse met with
lance and bow the charges of feather-panda, fire-rooster and jewel-podded
command plant; green apes wrestled in the tops of trees; the Garuda Bird
clutched a sky demon in its talons, assailing it with beak and pinions; from
the depths of the sea crawled an army of horned fish, clutching spikes of
pink coral in their jointed fins, facing a row of kirtled and helmeted men
who bore lances and torches to oppose their way upon the land.
The prince ate but sparingly. He toyed with his food, listened to the
music, laughed occasionally at the jesting of one of his men. He sipped a
sherbet, his rings clicking against the sides of the glass.
Hawkana appeared beside him. "Goes all well with you, Lord?" he
inquired.
"Yes, good Hawkana, all is well," he replied.
"You do not eat as do your men. Does the meal displease you?"
"It is not the food, which is excellent, nor its preparation, which is
faultless, worthy Hawkana. Rather, it is my appetite, which has not been
high of late."
"Ah!" said Hawkana, knowingly. "I have the thing, the very thing! Only
one such as yourself may truly appreciate it. Long has it rested upon the
special shelf of my cellar. The god Krishna had somehow preserved it against
the ages. He gave it to me many years ago because the accommodations here
did not displease him. I shall fetch it for you."
He bowed then, and backed from the hall.
When he returned he bore a bottle. Before he saw the paper upon its
side, the prince recognized the shape of that bottle.
"Burgundy!" he exclaimed.
"Just so," said Hawkana. "Brought from vanished Uratha, long ago."
He sniffed at it and smiled. Then he poured a small quantity into a
pear-shaped goblet and set it before his guest.
The prince raised it and inhaled of its bouquet. He took a slow sip. He
closed his eyes.
There was a silence in the room, in respect of his pleasure.
Then he lowered the glass, and Hawkana poured into it once again the
product of the pinot noir grape, which could not be cultivated in this land.
The prince did not touch the glass. Instead, he turned to Hawkana,
saying, "Who is the oldest musician in this house?"
"Mankara, here," said his host, gesturing toward the white-haired man
who took his rest at the serving table in the comer.
"Old not in body, but in years," said the prince.
"Oh, that would be Dele," said Hawkana, "if he is to be counted as a
musician at all. He says that once he was such a one."
"Dele?"
"The boy who keeps the stables."
"Ah, I see. . .. Send for him." Hawkana clapped his hands and ordered
the servant who appeared to go into the stables, make the horse-boy
presentable and fetch him with dispatch into the presence of the diners.
"Pray, do not bother making him presentable, but simply bring him
here," said the prince.
He leaned back and waited then, his eyes closed.
When the horse-boy stood before him, he asked:
"Tell me. Dele, what music do you play?"
"That which no longer finds favor in the hearing of Brahmins," said the
boy.
"What was your instrument?"
"Piano," said Dele.
"Can you play upon any of these?" He gestured at those instruments that
stood, unused now, upon the small platform beside the wall.
The boy cocked his head at them. "I suppose I could manage on the
flute, if I had to."
"Do you know any waltzes?"
"Yes."
"Will you play me 'The Blue Danube'?"
The boy's sullen expression vanished, to be replaced by one of
uneasiness. He cast a quick glance back at Hawkana, who nodded.
"Siddhartha is a prince among men, being of the First," stated the
host.
"'The Blue Danube,' on one of these flutes?"
"If you please."
The boy shrugged, "I'll try," he said. "It's been an awfully long time.
. .. Bear with me."
He crossed to where the instruments lay and muttered something to the
owner of the flute he selected. The man nodded his head. Then he raised it
to his lips and blew a few tentative notes. He paused, repeated the trial,
then turned about.
He raised it once more and began the quivering movement of the waltz.
As he played, the prince sipped his wine.
When he paused for breath, the prince motioned him to continue. He
played tune after forbidden tune, and the professional musicians put
professional expressions of scorn upon their faces; but beneath their table
several feet were tapping in slow time with the music.
Finally, the prince had finished his wine. Evening was near to the city
of Mahartha. He tossed the boy a purse of coins and did not look into his
tears as he departed from the hall. He rose then and stretched, smothering a
yawn with the back of his hand.
"I retire to my chambers," he said to his men. "Do not gamble away your
inheritances in my absence."
They laughed then and bade him good night, calling for strong drink and
salted biscuits. He heard the rattle of dice as he departed.
The prince retired early so that he might arise before daybreak. He
instructed a servant to remain outside his door all the following day and to
refuse admission to any who sought it, saying that he was indisposed.
Before the first flowers had opened to the first insects of morning, he
had gone from the hostel, only an ancient green parrot witnessing his
departure. Not in silks sewn with pearls did he go, but in tatters, as was
his custom on these occasions. Not preceded by conch and drum did he move,
but by silence, as he passed along the dim streets of the city. These
streets were deserted, save for an occasional doctor or prostitute returning
from a late call. A stray dog followed him as he passed through the business
district, heading in the direction of the harbor.
He seated himself upon a crate at the foot of a pier. The dawn came to
lift the darkness from the world; and he watched the ships stirring with the
tide, empty of sail, webbed with cables, prows carved with monster or
maiden. His every visit to Mahartha brought him again to the harbor for a
little while.
Morning's pink parasol opened above the tangled hair of the clouds, and
cool breezes crossed the docks. Scavenger birds uttered hoarse cries as they
darted about loop-windowed towers, then swooped across the waters of the
bay.
He watched a ship put out to sea, tentlike vanes of canvas growing to
high peaks and swelling in the salt air. Aboard other ships, secure in their
anchorage, there was movement now, as crews made ready to load or unload
cargoes of incense, coral, oil and all kinds of fabrics, as well as metals,
cattle, hardwoods and spices. He smelled the smells of commerce and listened
to the cursing of the sailors, both of which he admired: the former, as it
reeked of wealth, and the latter because it combined his two other chief
preoccupations, these being theology and anatomy.
After a time, he spoke with a foreign sea captain who had overseen the
unloading of sacks of grain, and now took his rest in the shade of the
crates.
"Good morning," he said. "May your passages be free of storm and
shipwreck, and the gods grant you safe harbor and a good market for your
cargoes."
The other nodded, seated himself upon a crate and proceeded to fill a
small clay pipe.
"Thank you, old one," he said. "Though I do pray to the gods of the
Temples of my own choosing, I accept the blessings of any and all. One can
always use blessings, especially a seaman."
"Had you a difficult voyage?"
"Less difficult than it might have been," said the sea captain. "That
smoldering sea mountain, the Cannon of Nirriti, discharges its bolts against
heaven once again."
"Ah, you sailed from the southwest!"
"Yes. Chatisthan, from Ispar-by-the-Sea. The winds are good in this
season of the year, but for this reason they also carried the ash of the
Cannon much farther than any would think. For six days this black snow fell
upon us, and the odors of the underworld pursued us, fouling food and water,
making the eyes to weep and the throat to burn. We offered much thanksgiving
when we finally outran it. See how the hull is smeared? You should have seen
the sails -- black as the hair of Ratri!"
The prince leaned forward to better regard the vessel. "But the waters
were not especially troubled?" he asked.
The sailor shook his head. "We hailed a cruiser near the Isle of Salt,
and we learned of it that we had missed by six days the worst dischargings
of the Cannon. At that time, it burnt the clouds and raised great waves,
sinking two ships the cruiser did know of, and possibly a third." The sailor
leaned back, stoking his pipe. "So, as I say, a seaman can always use
blessings."
"I seek a man of the sea," said the prince. "A captain. His name is Jan
Olvegg, or perhaps he is now known as Olvagga. Do you know him?"
"I knew him," said the other, "but it has been long since he sailed."
"Oh? What has become of him?"
The sailor turned his head to better study him. "Who are you to ask?"
he finally inquired.
"My name is Sam. Jan is a very old friend of mine."
"How old is 'very old'?"
"Many, many years ago, in another place, I knew him when he was captain
of a ship which did not sail these oceans."
The sea captain leaned forward suddenly and picked up a piece of wood,
which he hurled at the dog who had rounded a piling at the other side of the
pier. It yelped once and dashed off toward the shelter of a warehouse. It
was the same dog who had followed the prince from the hostel of Hawkana.
"Beware the hounds of hell," said the captain. "There are dogs and
there are dogs-- and there are dogs. Three different kinds, and in this port
drive them all from your presence." Then he appraised the other once again.
"Your hands," he said, gesturing with his pipe, "have recently worn many
rings. Their impressions yet remain."
Sam glanced at his hands and smiled. "Your eyes miss nothing, sailor,"
he replied. "So I admit to the obvious. I have recently worn rings."
"So, like the dogs, you are not what you appear to be-- and you come
asking after Olvagga, by his most ancient name. Your name, you say, is Sam.
Are you, perchance, one of the First?"
Sam did not reply immediately, but studied the other as though waiting
for him to say more.
Perhaps realizing this, the captain continued: "Olvagga, I know, was
numbered among the First, though he never spoke of it. Whether you are
yourself among the First, or are one of the Masters, you are aware of this.
So I do not betray him by so speaking. I do wish to know whether I speak to
a friend or an enemy, however."
Sam frowned. "Jan was never known for the making of enemies," he said.
"You speak as if he has them now, among those whom you call the Masters."
The seaman continued to stare at him. "You are not a Master," he
finally said, "and you come from afar."
"You are correct," said Sam, "but tell me how you know these things."
"First," said the other, "you are an old man. A Master, too, could have
upon him an old body, but he would not-- any more than he would remain a dog
for very long. His fear of dying the real death, suddenly, in the manner of
the old, would be too great. So he would not remain so long as to leave the
marks of rings deeply imprinted upon the fingers. The wealthy are never
despoiled of their bodies. If they are refused rebirth, they live out the
full span of their days. The Masters would fear a rising up in arms among
the followers of such a one, were he to meet with other than a natural
passing. So a body such as yours could not be obtained in this manner. A
body from the life tanks would not have marked fingers either.
"Therefore," he concluded, "I take you to be a man of importance other
than a Master. If you knew Olvagga of old, then you are also one of the
Firstlings, such as he. Because of the sort of information which you seek, I
take you to be one from afar. Were you a man of Mahartha you would know of
the Masters, and knowing of the Masters you would know why Olvagga cannot
sail."
"Your knowledge of matters in Mahartha seems greater than my own -- oh,
newly arrived sailor."
"I, too, come from a distant place," acknowledged the captain, smiling
faintly, "but in the space of a dozen months I may visit twice as many
ports. I hear news-- news and gossip and tales from all over-- from more
than a double dozen ports. I hear of the intrigues of the palace and the
affairs of the Temple. I hear the secrets whispered at night to the golden
girls beneath the sugar-cane bow of Kama. I hear of the campaigns of the
Khshatriya and the dealings of the great merchants in the futures of grains
and spices, jewels and silk. I drink with the bards and the astrologers,
with the actors and the servants, the coachmen and the tailors. Sometimes,
perhaps, I may strike the port where freebooters have haven and learn there
the faring of those they hold to ransom. So do not think it strange that I,
who come from afar, may know more of Mahartha than you, who may dwell
perhaps a week's faring hence. Occasionally, I may even hear of the doings
of the gods."
"Then you can tell me of the Masters, and why they are to be numbered
as enemies?" asked Sam.
"I can tell you something of them," replied the captain, "since you
should not go unwarned. The body merchants are now the Masters of Karma.
Their individual names are now kept secret, after the manner of the gods, so
that they seem as impersonal as the Great Wheel, which they claim to
represent. They are no longer merely body merchants, but are allied with the
Temples. These, too, are changed, for your kinsmen of the First who are now
gods do commune with them from Heaven. If you are indeed of the First, Sam,
your way must lead you either to deification or extinction, when you face
these new Masters of Karma."
"How?" asked Sam.
"Details you must seek elsewhere," said the other. "I do not know the
processes whereby these things are achieved. Ask after Jannaveg the
sailmaker on the Street of the Weavers."
"This is how Jan is now known?"
The other nodded. "And beware the dogs," he said, "or, for that matter,
anything else which is alive and may harbor intelligence."
"What is your name, captain?" asked Sam.
"In this port, I have no name at all or a false one, and I see no
reason for lying to you. Good day, Sam."
"Good day, captain. Thank you for your words."
Sam rose and departed the harbor, heading back toward the business
district and the streets of the trades.
The sun was a red discus in the heavens, rising to meet the Bridge of
the Gods. The prince walked through the awakened city, threading his way
among the stalls displaying the skills of the workmen in the small crafts.
Hawkers of unguents and powders, perfumes and oils, moved about him.
Florists waved their garlands and corsages at the passer-by; and the
vintners said nothing, sitting with their wineskins on rows of shaded
benches, waiting for their customers to come to them as they always did. The
morning smelled of cooking food, musk, flesh, excrement, oils and incense
all churned up together and turned loose to wander like an invisible cloud.
Dressed as a beggar himself, it did not seem out of place for him to
stop and speak to the hunchback with the begging bowl.
"Greetings, brother," he stated. "I am far from my quarter on an
errand. Can you direct me to the Street of the Weavers?"
The hunchback nodded and shook his bowl suggestively.
He withdrew a small coin from the pouch concealed beneath his tattered
garments. He dropped it into the hunchback's bowl and it quickly vanished.
"That way." The man gestured with his head. "The third street you come
upon, turn there to the left. Then follow it past two streets more, and you
will be at the Circle of the Fountain before the Temple of Varuna. Coming
into that Circle, the Street of the Weavers is marked by the Sign of the
Awl."
He nodded to the hunchback, patted his hump and continued on his way.
When he reached the Circle of the Fountain, the prince halted. Several
dozen people stood in a shifting line before the Temple of Varuna, most
stern and august of all the deities. These people were not preparing to
enter the Temple, but rather were engaged in some occupation that required
waiting and taking turns. He heard the rattling of coins and he wandered
nearer.
It was a machine, gleaming and metallic, before which they moved.
A man inserted a coin into the mouth of a steel tiger. The machine
began to purr. He pressed buttons cast in the likenesses of animals and
demons. There came then a flashing of lights along the lengths of the Nagas,
the two holy serpents who twisted about the transparent face of the machine.
He edged closer.
The man drew down upon the lever that grew from the side of the machine
cast in the likeness of the tail of a fish.
A holy blue light filled the interior of the machine; the serpents
pulsed redly; and there, in the midst of the light and a soft music that had
begun to play, a prayer wheel swung into view and began spinning at a
furious pace.
The man wore a beatific expression. After several minutes, the machine
shut itself off. He inserted another coin and pulled the lever once more,
causing several of those nearer to the end of the line to grumble audibly,
remarking to the effect that that was his seventh coin, it was a warm day,
there were other people waiting to get some praying done and why did he not
go inside and render such a large donation directly to the priests? Someone
replied that the little man obviously had much atoning to do. There then
began some speculation as to the possible nature of his sins. This was
accompanied by considerable laughter.
Seeing that there were several beggars waiting their turn in line, the
prince moved to its end and stood there.
As the line advanced, he noted that, while some of those who passed
before the machine pushed its buttons, others merely inserted a flat metal
disc into the mouth of the second tiger on the opposite side of the chassis.
After the machine had ceased to function, the disc fell into a cup and was
retrieved by its owner. The prince decided to venture an inquiry.
He addressed the man who stood before him in line:
"Why is it," he asked, "that some men do have discs of their own?"
"It is because they have registered," said the other, without turning
his head.
"In the Temple?"
"Yes."
"Oh."
He waited half a minute, then inquired, "Those who are unregistered,
and wish to use it-- they push the buttons?"
"Yes," said the other, "spelling out their name, occupation, and
address."
"Supposing one be a visitor here, such as myself?"
"You should add the name of your city."
"Supposing one is unlettered, such as myself-- what then?"
The other turned to him. "Perhaps ''twere better," he said, "that you
make prayer in the old way, and give the donation directly into the hands of
the priests. Or else register and obtain a disc of your own."
"I see," said the prince. "Yes, you are right. I must think of this
more. Thank you."
He left the line and circled the fountain to where the Sign of the Awl
hung upon a pillar. He moved up the Street of the Weavers.
Three times did he ask after Janagga the sailmaker, the third time of a
short woman with powerful arms and a small mustache, who sat cross-legged,
plaiting a rug, in her stall beneath the low eave of what once might have
been a stable and still smelled as if it were.
She growled him directions, after raking him upward and down again with
oddly lovely brown-velvet eyes. He followed her directions, taking his way
up a zigzagging alley and down an outer stair, which ran along the wall of a
five-story building, ending at a door that opened upon a basement hallway.
It was damp and dark within.
He knocked upon the third door to his left, and after a time it opened.
The man stared at him. "Yes?"
"May I come in? It is a matter of some urgency . . ."
The man hesitated a moment, then nodded abruptly and stepped aside.
The prince moved past him and into his chamber. A great sheet of canvas
was spread out over the floor, before the stool upon which the man reseated
himself. He motioned the prince into the only other chair in the room.
He was short and big in the shoulders; his hair was pure white, and the
pupils of his eyes bore the smoky beginnings of cataract invasion. His hands
were brown and hard, the joints of his fingers knotted.
"Yes?" he repeated.
"Jan Olvegg," said the other.
"The old man's eyes widened, then narrowed to slits.
He weighed a pair of scissors in his hand.
"'It's a long way to Tipperary,' " said the prince.
The man stared, then smiled suddenly. "'If your heart's not here,'" he
said, placing the scissors on his workstand. "How long has it been, Sam?" he
asked.
"I've lost count of the years."
"Me too. But it must be forty -- forty-five?-- since I've seen you.
Much beer over the damn dam since then, I daresay?"
Sam nodded.
"I don't really know where to begin . . ." said the man.
"For a start, tell me-- why 'Janagga'?"
"Why not?" asked the other. "It has a certain earnest, working-class
sound about it. How about yourself? Still in the prince business?"
"I'm still me," said Sam, "and they still call me Siddhartha when they
come to call."
The other chuckled. "And 'Binder of the Demons,'" he recited. "Very
good. I take it, then, since your fortunes do not match your garb, that you
are casing the scene, as is your wont."
Sam nodded. "And I have come upon much which I do not understand."
"Aye," sighed Jan. "Aye. How shall I begin? How? I shall tell you of
myself, that's how. . . . I have accumulated too much bad karma to warrant a
current transfer."
"What?"
"Bad karma, that's what I said. The old religion is not only the
religion-- it is the revealed, enforced and frighteningly demonstrable
religion. But don't think that last part too loudly. About a dozen years ago
the Council authorized the use of psych-probes on those who were up for
renewal. This was right after the Accelerationist-Deicrat split, when the
Holy Coalition squeezed out the tech boys and kept right on squeezing. The
simplest solution was to outlive the problem. The Temple crowd then made a
deal with the body sellers, customers were brain-probed and Accelerationists
were refused renewal, or . . . well . . . simple as that. There aren't too
many Accelerationists now. But that was only the beginning. The god party
was quick to realize that therein lay the way of power. Having your brains
scanned has become a standard procedure, just prior to a transfer. The body
merchants are become the Masters of Karma, and a part of the Temple
structure. They read over your past life, weigh the karma, and determine
your life that is yet to come. It's a perfect way of maintaining the caste
system and ensuring Deicratic control. By the way, most of our old
acquaintances are in it up to their halos."
"God!" said Sam.
"Plural," Jan corrected. "They've always been considered gods, with
their Aspects and Attributes, but they've made it awfully official now. And
anyone who happens to be among the First had bloody well better be sure
whether he wants quick deification or the pyre when he walks into the Hall
of Karma these days.
"When's your appointment?" he finished.
"Tomorrow," said Sam, "in the afternoon. . . . Why are you still
walking around, if you don't have a halo or a handful of thunderbolts?"
"Because I do have a couple friends, both of whom suggested I continue
living-- quietly-- rather than face the probe. I took their sage advice to
heart and consequently am still around to mend sails and raise occasional
hell in the local bistros. Else"-- he raised a callused hand, snapped his
fingers-- "else, if not the real death, then perhaps a body shot full with
cancer, or the interesting life of a gelded water buffalo, or . . ."
"A dog?" asked Sam.
"Just so," Jan replied.
Jan filled the silence and two glasses with a splashing of alcohol.
"Thanks."
"Happy hellfire." He replaced the bottle on his workstand.
"On an empty stomach yet. . . . You make that yourself?"
"Yep. Got a still in the next room."
"Congratulations, I guess. If I had any bad karma, it should all be
dissolved by now."
"The definition of bad karma is anything our friends the gods don't
like."
"What made you think you had some?"
"I wanted to start passing out machines among our descendants here. Got
batted down at Council for it. Recanted, and hoped they'd forget. But
Accelerationism is so far out now that it'll never make it back in during my
lifetime. Pity, too. I'd like to lift sail again, head off toward another
horizon. Or lift ship. . ."
"The probe is actually sensitive enough to spot something as intangible
as an Accelerationist attitude?"
"The probe," said Jan, "is sensitive enough to tell what you had for
breakfast eleven years ago yesterday and where you cut yourself shaving that
morning, while humming the Andorran national anthem."
"They were experimental things when we left home," said Sam. "The two
we brought along were very basic brain-wave translators. When did the
breakthrough occur?"
"Hear me, country cousin," said Jan. "Do you remember a snot-nosed brat
of dubious parentage, third generation, named Yama? The kid who was always
souping up generators, until one day one blew and he was so badly burned
that he got his second body-- one over fifty years old-- when he was only
sixteen? The kid who loved weapons? The fellow who anesthetized one of
everything that moves out there and dissected it, taking such pleasure in
his studies that we called him deathgod?"
"Yes, I recall him. Is he still alive?"
"If you want to call it that. He now is deathgod-- not by nickname, but
by title. He perfected the probe about forty years ago, but the Deicrats
kept it under wraps until fairly recently. I hear he's dreamed up some other
little jewels, too, to serve the will of the gods . . . like a mechanical
cobra capable of registering encephalogram readings from a mile away, when
it rears and spreads its fan. It can pick one man out of a crowd, regardless
of the body he wears. There is no known antidote for its venom. Four
seconds, no more. . . . Or the fire wand, which is said to have scored the
surfaces of all three moons while Lord Agni stood upon the seashore and
waved it. And I understand that he is designing some sort of jet-propelled
juggernaut for Lord Shiva at this moment. . . things like that."
"Oh," said Sam.
"Will you pass the probe?" Jan asked.
"I'm afraid not," he replied. "Tell me, I saw a machine this morning
which I think may best be described as a pray-o-mat-- are they very common?"
"Yes," said Jan. "They appeared about two years ago-- dreamed up by
young Leonardo over a short glass of soma one night. Now that the karma idea
has caught on, the things are better than tax collectors. When mister
citizen presents himself at the clinic of the god of the church of his
choice on the eve of his sixtieth year, his prayer account is said to be
considered along with his sin account, in deciding the caste he will enter--
as well as the age, sex and health of the body he will receive. Nice. Neat."
"I will not pass the probe," said Sam, "even if I build up a mighty
prayer account. They'll snare me when it comes to sin."
"What sort of sin?"
"Sins I have yet to commit, but which are being written in my mind as I
consider them now."
"You plan to oppose the gods?"
"Yes."
"How?"
"I do not yet know. I shall begin, however, by contacting them. Who is
their chief?"
"I can name you no one. Trimurti rules-- that is, Brahma, Vishnu and
Shiva. Which of these three be chiefest at any one time, I cannot say. Some
say Brahma-- "
"Who are they-- really?" asked Sam.
Jan shook his head. "I do not know. They all wear different bodies than
they did a generation ago. They all use god names."
Sam stood. "I will return later, or send for you."
"I hope so. . . . Another drink?"
Sam shook his head. "I go to become Siddhartha once more, to break my
fast at the hostel of Hawkana and announce there my intent to visit the
Temples. If our friends are now gods then they must commune with their
priests. Siddhartha goes to pray."
"Then put in no words for me," said Jan, as he poured out another
drink. "I do not know whether I would live through a divine visitation."
Sam smiled. "They are not omnipotent."
"I sincerely hope not," replied the other, "but I fear that day is not
far off."
"Good sailing, Jan."
"Skaal."
Prince Siddhartha stopped on the Street of the Smiths, on his way to
the Temple of Brahma. Half an hour later he emerged from a shop, accompanied
by Strake and three of his retainers. Smiling, as though he had received a
vision of what was to come, he passed through the center of Mahartha, coming
at last to the high, wide Temple of the Creator.
Ignoring the stares of those who stood before the pray-o-mat, he
mounted the long, shallow stairway, meeting at the Temple entrance with the
high priest, whom he had advised earlier of his coming.
Siddhartha and his men entered the Temple, disarming themselves and
paying preliminary obeisances toward its central chamber before addressing
the priest.
Strake and the others drew back a respectful distance as the prince
placed a heavy purse in the priest's hands and said, in a low voice:
"I'd like to speak with God."
The priest studied his face as he replied, "The Temple is open to all.
Lord Siddhartha, where one may commune with Heaven for so long as one
wishes."
"That is not exactly what I had in mind," said Siddhartha. "I was
thinking of something more personal than a sacrifice and a long litany."
"I do not quite follow you . . ."
"But you understand the weight of that purse, do you not? It contains
silver. Another which I bear is filled with gold-- payable upon delivery. I
want to use your telephone."
"Tele . . . ?"
"Communication system. If you were of the First, such as I, you would
understand my reference."
"I do not . . ."
"I assure you my call will not reflect adversely upon your wardenship
here. I am aware of these matters and my discretion has always been a byword
among the First. Call First Base yourself and inquire, if it will put you at
ease. I'll wait here in the outer chamber. Tell them Sam would have words
with Trimurti. They will take the call."
"I do not know. . ."
Sam withdrew the second purse and weighed it in the palm of his hand.
The priest's eyes fell upon it and he licked his lips.
"Wait here," he ordered, and he turned on his heel and left the
chamber.
Ili, the fifth note of the harp, buzzed within the Garden of the Purple
Lotus.
Brahma loafed upon the edge of the heated pool, where he bathed with
his harem. His eyes appeared closed, as he leaned there upon his elbows, his
feet dangling in the water.
But he stared out from beneath his long lashes, watching the dozen
girls at sport in the pool, hoping to see one or more cast an appreciative
glance upon the dark, heavily muscled length of his body. Black upon brown,
his mustaches glistened in moist disarray and his hair was a black wing upon
his back. He smiled a bright smile in the filtered sunlight.
But none of them appeared to notice, so he refolded his smile and put
it away. All their attention lay with the game of water polo in which they
were engaged.
Ili, the bell of communication, buzzed once more, as an artificial
breeze waited the odor of garden jasmine to his nostrils. He sighed. He
wanted so for them to worship him-- his powerful physique, his carefully
molded features. To worship him as a man, not as a god.
But though his special and improved body permitted feats no mortal man
could duplicate, still he felt uneasy in the presence of an old war horse
like Lord Shiva-- who, despite his adherence to the normal body matrix,
seemed to hold far more attraction for women. It was almost as if sex were a
thing that transcended biology; and no matter how hard he tried to suppress
the memory and destroy that segment of spirit, Brahma had been born a woman
and somehow was woman still. Hating this thing, he had elected to incarnate
time after time as an eminently masculine man, did so, and still felt
somehow inadequate, as though the mark of his true sex were branded upon his
brow. It made him want to stamp his foot and grimace.
He rose and stalked off toward his pavilion, past stunted trees that
twisted with a certain grotesque beauty, past trellises woven with morning
glory, pools of blue water lilies, strings of pearls swinging from rings all
wrought of white gold, past lamps shaped like girls, tripods wherein pungent
incenses burnt and an eight-armed statue of a blue goddess who played upon
the veena when properly addressed.
Brahma entered the pavilion and crossed to the screen of crystal, about
which a bronze Naga twisted, tail in teeth. He activated the answering
mechanism.
There was a static snowfall, and then he faced the high priest of his
Temple in Mahartha. The priest dropped to his knees and touched his caste
mark three times upon the floor.
"Of the four orders of gods and the eighteen hosts of Paradise,
mightiest is Brahma," said the priest. "Creator of all. Lord of high Heaven
and everything beneath it. A lotus springs forth from your navel, your hands
churn the oceans, in three strides your feet encompass all the worlds. The
drum of your glory strikes terror in the hearts of your enemies. Upon your
right hand is the wheel of the law. You tether catastrophes, using a snake
for rope. Hail! See fit to accept the prayer of your priest. Bless me and
hear me, Brahma!'
"Arise . . . priest," said Brahma, having forgotten his name. "What
thing of mighty importance moved you to call me thus?"
The priest arose, cast a quick glance upon Brahma's dripping person and
looked away again.
"Lord," said the priest, "I did not mean to call while you were at
bath, but there is one among your worshipers here now who would speak with
you, on a matter which I take to be of mighty importance."
"One of my worshipers! Tell him that all-hearing Brahma hears all, and
direct him to pray to me in the ordinary manner, in the Temple proper!"
Brahma's hand moved toward the shutoff switch, then paused. "How came
he to know of the Temple-to-Heaven line?" he inquired. "And of the direct
communion of saints and gods?"
"He says," replied the priest, "that he is of the First, and that I
should relay the message that Sam would have words with Trimurti."
"Sam?" said Brahma. "Sam? Surely it cannot be . . . that Sam?"
"He is the one known hereabouts as Siddhartha, Binder of the Demons."
"Await my pleasure," said Brahma, "singing the while various
appropriate verses from the Vedas."
"I hear, my Lord," said the priest, and he commenced singing.
Brahma moved to another part of the pavilion and stood awhile before
his wardrobe, deciding what to wear.
The prince, hearing his name called, turned from the contemplation of
the Temple's interior. The priest, whose name he had forgotten, beckoned him
along a corridor. He followed, and the passage led into a storage chamber.
The priest rumbled after a hidden catch, then drew upon a row of shelves
that opened outward, doorlike.
The prince passed through this doorway. He found himself within a
richly decorated shrine. A glowing view-screen hung above its
altar/control-panel, encircled by a bronze Naga, which held its tail in its
teeth.
The priest bowed three times.
"Hail, ruler of the universe, mightiest of the four orders of gods and
the eighteen hosts of paradise. From your navel springs forth the lotus,
your hands churn the oceans, in three strides -- "
"I acknowledge the truth of what you say," replied Brahma. "You are
blessed and heard. You may leave us now."
"?"
"That is correct. Sam is doubtless paying you for a private line, is he
not?"
"Lord . . . !"
"Enough! Depart!"
The priest bowed quickly and left, closing the shelves behind him.
Brahma studied Sam, who was wearing dark jodhpurs, a sky-blue khameez,
the blue-green turban of Urath and an empty scabbard upon a chain belt of
dark iron.
Sam, in turn, studied the other, who stood with blackness at his back,
wearing a feather cloak over a suit of light mail. It was caught at the
throat with a clasp of fire opal. Brahma wore a purple crown, studded with
pulsating amethysts, and he bore in his right hand a scepter mounted with
the nine auspicious gems. His eyes were two dark stains upon his dark face.
The gentle strumming of a veena occurred about him.
"Sam?" he said.
Sam nodded.
"I am trying to guess your true identity. Lord Brahma. I confess that I
cannot."
"This is as it should be," said Brahma, "if one is to be a god who was,
is and always shall be."
"Fine garments, those you wear," said Sam. "Quite fetching."
"Thank you. I find it hard to believe that you still exist. Checking, I
note that you have not sought a new body for half a century. That is taking
quite a chance."
Sam shrugged. "Life is full of chances, gambles, uncertainties. . ."
"True," said Brahma. "Pray, draw up a chair and sit down. Make yourself
comfortable."
Sam did this, and when he looked up again, Brahma was seated upon a
high throne carved of red marble, with a matching parasol flared above it.
"That looks a bit uncomfortable," he remarked.
"Foam-rubber cushion," replied the god, smiling. "You may smoke, if you
wish."
"Thanks." Sam drew his pipe from the pouch at his belt, filled it,
tamped it carefully and struck it to fire.
"What have you been doing all this time," asked the god, "since you
left the roost of Heaven?"
"Cultivating my own gardens," said Sam.
"We could have used you here," said Brahma, "in our hydroponics
section. For that matter, perhaps we still could. Tell me more of your stay
among men."
"Tiger hunts, border disputes with neighboring kingdoms, keeping up the
morale of the harem, a bit of botanical research-- things like that-- the
stuff of life," said Sam. "Now my powers slacken, and I seek once more my
youth. But to obtain it again, I understand that I must have my brains
strained. Is that true?"
"After a fashion," said Brahma.
"To what end, may I ask?"
"That wrong shall fail and right prevail," said the god, smiling.
"Supposing I'm wrong," asked Sam, "how shall I fail?"
"You shall be required to work off your karmic burden in a lesser
form."
"Have you any figures readily available as to the percentage that
fails, vis-á-vis that which prevails?"
"Think not less of me in my omniscience," said Brahma, stifling a yawn
with his scepter, "if I admit to having, for the moment, forgotten these
figures."
Sam chuckled. "You say you have need of a gardener there in the
Celestial City?"
"Yes," said Brahma. "Would you like to apply for the job?"
"I don't know," said Sam. "Perhaps."
"And then again, perhaps not?" said the other.
"Perhaps not, also," he acknowledged. "In the old days there was none
of this shillyshallying with a man's mind. If one of the First sought
renewal, he paid the body price and was served."
"We no longer dwell in the old days, Sam. The new age is at hand."
"One would almost think that you sought the removal of all of the First
who are not marshaled at your back."
"A pantheon has room for many, Sam. There is a niche for you, if you
choose to claim it."
"If I do not?"
"Then inquire in the Hall of Karma after your body."
"And if I elect godhood?"
"Your brains will not be probed. The Masters will be advised to serve
you quickly and well. A flying machine will be dispatched to convey you to
Heaven."
"It bears a bit of thinking," said Sam. "I'm quite fond of this world,
though it wallows in an age of darkness. On the other hand, such fondness
will not serve me to enjoy the things I desire, if it is decreed that I die
the real death or take on the form of an ape and wander about the jungles.
But I am not overly fond of artificial perfection either, such as existed in
Heaven when last I visited there. Bide with me a moment while I meditate."
"I consider such indecision presumptuous," said Brahma, "when one has
just been made such an offer."
"I know, and perhaps I should also, were our positions reversed. But if
I were God and you were me, I do believe I would extend a moment's merciful
silence while a man makes a major decision regarding his life."
"Sam, you are an impossible haggler! Who else would keep me waiting
while his immortality hangs in the balance? Surely you do not seek to
bargain with me?"
"Well, I do come from a long line of slizzard traders-- and I do very
badly want something."
"And what may that be?"
"Answers to a few questions which have plagued me for a while now."
"These being . . . ?"
"As you are aware, I stopped attending the old Council meetings over a
century ago, for they had become lengthy sessions calculated to postpone
decision-making, and were primarily an excuse for a Festival of the First.
Now, I have nothing against festivals. In fact, for a century and a half I
went to them only to drink good Earth booze once more. But, I felt that we
should be doing something about the passengers, as well as the offspring of
our many bodies, rather than letting them wander a vicious world, reverting
to savagery. I felt that we of the crew should be assisting them, granting
them the benefits of the technology we had preserved, rather than building
ourselves an impregnable paradise and treating the world as a combination
game preserve and whorehouse. So, I have wondered long why this thing was
not done. It would seem a fair and equitable way to run a world."
"I take it from this that you are an Accelerationist?"
"No," said Sam, "simply an inquirer. I am curious, that's all, as to
the reasons."
"Then, to answer your questions," said Brahma, "it is because they are
not ready for it. Had we acted immediately-- yes, t